Last night I was wondering why I felt so dark inside. It was a feeling the feeling you get after waking up from a nightmare. Its a feeling of painful hopelessness kind of. Its a feeling I can't tag with an emotion and I was wondering why I felt that way. I asked the many who help in the higher densities, for them to send me some incite into what was causing that pain. It then crossed my mind that this is the same feeling you get when you come into contact with a dark being. I noted that it was in the area of my heart chakra mainly, but partly in my solar plexus chakra. That's the main area you (your spirit) are in in your body.

So, I told the spirit I did not wish it to be present in my body and it could not stay in my home either. It left and a massive amount of positive energy flooded my system because that area was being healed since the spirit left my body. I would have to imagine that the spirit came into my body because I was in a weakened state at that point. I have been working endlessly for months on building my hosting company and stabilizing products for many to enjoy and I was pulling all nighters and sleeping at odd times.

So, I was tired and full of stress and that dis-ease allowed for my energetic field to be lowered enough for the negative spirit to enter my body. I also have been purging negative emotions lately as well and when I purge them, the negativity intensifies and then it just stops and goes away completely. So, with that constant stream of negativity being purged from my system, it could have left a healthy trail for the negative being to enter my shell.

So, if you feel like you do when you wake from a nightmare and you can't figure out why, you should tell the negative being to leave your body and your house. I felt the one that was in my shell, leave, and I also heart it hit something on the nightstand next to me and I could feel it there as well. My bedroom felt dark for a while before last night and when I told the spirit to leave, the bedroom felt more pure again.

Plus I kept getting startled every once in a while because I'd see feet out of nowhere. I'd laugh after I saw them because I found it funny that I'd just see feet out of nowhere and I thought it was a friendly spirit just startling me out of nowhere on accident. I'm not sure if they're the same being or not, but it was just something I noticed happening before I told the spirit to leave my shell.




Keywords: negative spirit, demon, possession, negative being, nightmare, exorcism, treadmill the bastards, exercise em

Meditation is nothing other than deep thought with your soul. When you think with your mind, do you see pictures? Meditation is just like that only you allow yourself to open up to your soul and listen. So, if you allow yourself to just focus on what you wish to meditate on instead of looking for images, the images will come. Your pineal gland has rods and cones in it, so it literally is a 3rd eye. This is why you can picture things in your mind and you can see images when you sleep. The more healthy your pineal gland is, the more vivid the images. The same is true with your visible eyes. In time your system is polluted more and more, so as you age, your vision starts to get darker. (My hypothesis on the aging bit.) You can get yourself an RO system on eBay for about $115 USD and it takes out a LOT of garbage from your water system including fluoride. You can also switch to Tom's of Maine's non-fluoride toothpastry. (Or another brand) That will help rejuvenate your pineal gland from having been calcified by toxins.


Also, religions do use brainwashing, but most of the people in those religions have no idea they are even brainwashing you because they don't believe anything other than what they are teaching, so they're not at fault for it. When you realize that you were brainwashed, you start the healing process, but it won't usually cause physical damage. It just locks you up mentally is all. Also, the way the dark ones operate is they keep as much truth as possible, but they alter small amounts of things to their benefit. This makes it easier to keep things consistent, but over time they change more and more. For instance, my friend showed me that in the 1930's (I think 1930s) bible, it never said "Don't be gay. God hates that." It was one of the many things the dark ones added in over time.


With channeling, you don't need to focus on images. Focus on the intent. Allow that intent to grow and see where it takes you. You won't control the images you see if you see them. The one you're contacting will be controlling them. The liquid light that you see if your auric energy and it will move into the images you see from the one you're contacting. That's how it is for me at least, but don't focus on that. Focus on making contact and see what happens. When I stopped trying to hear the one I was channeling, I started to see what they were showing me. So, don't focus on the method. Focus on the intent to communicate. Focus on the being you wish to communicate with and talk to them and wait for a response. Keep pushing the questions out and eventually you'll tune in enough to start talking to them. When you do it the first time, you'll find it easier to keep doing it the next time.




Keywords: meditation, channeling, religious oppression

Stress will put you into depression. The solution is to meditate and learn any and all lessons you possibly can figure out that are causing the stress. Find a solution to everything and if afterward you don't feel like you want to work on starting the solutions right away or can't start them right away, then you'll need to take a nap. When you fall asleep, your body will repair itself and will feel much more alive and rejuvenated as well.

I hope this helps someone.




Keywords: stress, depression, meditate, lessons

I lived in an old hunting lodge while growing up and the place was crammed with negative energy. When I was moving things to the new house in the front yard that we had just built, I went back to the old house to get some things and on my way out was going to turn off the power to the house and I heard a sneeze and snort from the other side of the house and then footsteps running towards me. I hurried to get out of the house and I ran to Iran, wait I didn't run to Iran, I ran to the new house is where I ran, so yes I ran. It felt like it took forever to get out of the old house and run to the new house. I stared out of the window at the new house bug eyed for an hour and then my brother came home and I asked if he was the one at the house. He said no and I believed him and still do.


So, what happened? Well, growing up in the old house Steve, my brother, would sneeze and snort due to the air conditioning and he's keep me up all night because we shared the same room. At that point in my life I was in the phase where there was always a fight in the house and everyone blamed me for everything pretty much. My being annoyed with certain things made some fights happen too. So, when he kept me up with his incessant sneezing, I got pissed off and an argument would ensue. He kept waking me up and I couldn't sleep elsewhere. I had school in the morning and it was quite aggravating that he wouldn't stop. Arguments when we were both out of bed would cause him to run after me and I knew no matter what that he would catch me, so I eventually just let him catch me and he would claw up my arms with his nails. Then my mom would see what happened and let him get away with clawing me up. My arms are scared from my elbows down to my fingertips because of all of that. My mom wouldn't make him trim his nails and she thought it was good that he clawed me up so "I'd learn my lesson" basically is what she said. Keep in mind that she always thought I started every single fight, so even though he instigated a good many of them, it was always my fault. So, this explains why the poltergeist sneezed, then snorted, and then ran after me.


The moral of the story is that negative energy can seriously come into a powerful physical manifestation. It was a dimensional rip that allowed that poltergeist to manifest out of the negative energy created from those situations. Right now my brother and I get along perfectly and he's much more of a pacifist now as am I. My mom always loved both of us, so don't think she didn't. No I'm not saying this because of some victim mentality excuse, I really mean that. How can I tell? When we hugged back then and we hug now, I can feel immense positive energy. What you just read is the worst of it all and pretty much that's the only thing I didn't like about her. She's a really nice person, but she allowed arguments to play out with me as always being the bad guy. So, I want to make it VERY clear that she does love us and that this was just something that she used to do. She still has some attributes that show that she thinks more highly of Steve in regards to how he lives his life, but that doesn't mean she loves me any less. Their views are just closer on things is all.


As for Steve, he an I are now like best friends. We help each other out, we talk to each other without ever arguing, and its like the whole childhood experience of us fighting never happened. Growing up was phase 1 of 3. I needed to burn off karma and negative energy and break myself into a stronger mental standing in life by taking in verbal and physical abuse. I chose to experience this before incarnating, just like they chose to experience their parts before they incarnated. Part 2 was my gender blending part of my life and that took place after a short break and spanned a good 8 year block of time and caused me to learn to love and accept myself and made me more spiritual in the end. Phase 3 was my spiritual awakening and it persists to this day. Phase 1 and 2 were the hardest parts and now this phase 3 is a cleansing phase.




Keywords: poltergeist, negative energy, childhood, life story

Hey, a friend of mine had an experience where he could bring the reality of 3D into his dreams. First is the message he wrote and below it is my experience where my lucid dreams seem more real than being awake and how 3D never feels like I'm really here. Enjoy!