Everyone is pure love when it all comes down for it. Here's a message someone wrote, and below it is my response.
Over the last few months I have been frantically searching to move and change my life situation. I am usually a happy person who enjoys pretty much any surrounding. Lately I have had massive urges to get away to another house and area away from my housemates because they are massively annoying me with their dramas, within the last 2 weeks i have been soooo close to handing in my notice at work just out of the blue and I feel so insecure and vulnerable. I am usually pretty grounded and can offer people advice but now I've become detached from them where usually I would help them with their problems.
I thought 2012 was the year but from the start I feel like I've been on the back foot and massively confused. I read up lots on being a lightworker and symptoms and how we are workers of the light but at this moment i feel like I'm doing more harm than good. I understand that is not going change overnight but i feel like I'm being swallowed up and having a tough time believing that i would choose this for myself ahead of coming into this life.
I find myself having full blown 20-30 minute conversations with my spirit guides who by the way i have never seen or even know exist. But I find myself talking to them as I'm walking up the street. It's always the same conversation and my plea for them to help me not to be 'me' anymore. I really don't want my personality anymore... the part that gets jealous, that feels afraid, compares with others, thats wants loads of money, that lacks faith, that judges people. Its brought me this far but now i want to transcend it.
Anyway has anyone felt like this before?
You're not those feelings. Those feelings are lessons, not you. You are pure love as we all are, but the pains we all feel are a catalyst for change. Yes we may think we are anything other than love at times, but when it all comes down to it, we are pure love as love is the only thing that exists. Fear is the opposite of love and out of love it warrants lessons for change. Pain is a catalyst for change. Out of love, we show compassion. Out of anger, we show love by giving another person pain to change their ways or strengthen their views on something by retaliating and they out of love give us anger to strengthen ourselves. Whatever hurts us makes us stronger. (Stronger in love) Whatever we do that's positive like making someone smile, laugh, showing compassion for someone, we do so out of love. We are all one and we are love. We are only love, but we are putting on a play.
OK, after so many funny posts, this one's a serious post for a change. I read a post on Lightworkers.org where someone became Christian again after being a lightworker. I'm proud of them for finding their way to what makes them happy and I wanted to share some findings I had on the topic as well as how I see things. Below is my post, after the quoted post of the person who turned Christian. Enjoy!
I'm writing this words with sorrow , knowing that from this message on I will be on your "jurk" list , but I can't stand in silence anymore , becouse when in some years this Earth is controlled by one world goverment(Satan's puppets) and we are a corporation's slaves , when my children aks me: Where have you been when Lucifer inslaved us what have you did to stop him? What shell I answer them.
My story is short and I realy want you to read it becouse I was one of you. 5 years ago I started learning this new religion called NewAge started meditating and ofcourse using a lot of amouns of marijuana becouse this was my way to connect with my Higher Self and feel the love cry of it. I did some channelings mostly for personal stuff and this is when it got me for sure becouse this words were not coming from me and that was a sign that it is real . Latter I started with the past life regretioning and exploring different sound vibrations and I was thought that I was from the 9 dimension a prince a blue cat like prince humenoid .. Very real the voices the images the flying buildings wich couldn't be see here on Earth and finally I was there I was thinking of me as equal to God.
I was numerologist also and sighn wacher so when the number 53 kept appiaring all the times I started to look for the meaning and one day I found it and it was the Lucifer plan number it means :"destroying violatying the holly trinity" then in further investigations I found that all todays leaders and cabal are actualy a religious succiety based on the belive that Lucifer is suprime god and he is the "mach bearer"( You probabbly heart of that)also "the illuminated one" or even the "1st morning light" and this is realy the meaning of his name becouse it was the name given before the fall after it became Satan . He had great knowledge and understanding (I started reading bible some time ago after that) and he was the 1st from the cheruvims and was the light angle but he did not obey God and made a rebbelion and was casted on the earth(phisical dimensions) after that he targeted The Creator's finest and most beloved creation the humen. He and his angels started to lie and decieve peaople and then they could obsses them speak with their mouts act with their body inplant images and so on. He wanted us to turn away from our only salvation Jesus Christ(who is God incarnation in your terms) and the only way to do that is to turn agains his teachings .
How? Well I will tell you once you think that you are god himself you dont need selvation anymore. When you see at that old book sayings like you are sinner you have to be cleaned Jusus died so he can clean us from the heavens your mind just cant accept that with the belive that you are god. It is real my dear I will all that easy way to Ascention without fight without evil forces was true but it is not. He targes us mainly becouse as written we are the Elected once becouse we have the belive we know deep within that there is God that there is something else and there is a plan wich actions are now and he uses that.
What made me so sure that this old stuff is true and the fine newage filled with so commpassion and love is not?
Well lets start at this words of God : "dont trust Ashtarians nor Baal and his followers". Did you know that all new age is coming from KaBAALA. The jew's mistic teaching that made them from the chosen people to the sinners. KaBAALA . Ashtarians - Ashtar command .. The masonic secret god BAAL . It is not something new comming from the space or from stars or etc.. And now after talked and made you hate me I thing is time to show you why I belive so much the evidences wich if you follow and read the bible will clearly see how deep we were lied.. The Ascention for sure will not happen to you if you continue to follow Satanic teachings becouse ascention is the rapture it is a promise of God that those who he choose will be elected to ascend into the heavens get some new skills so to say and immortality well it not ends there but I think to silence here so you cand find out what the bible is saying and you will be amazed how much resonates with All the confusion will drop becouse Satan says half lies half truths becouse he nows that deep inside your God spark will warn you if it is too sensable but after all his main goal is to make us disobey the LORDs comandments and dont pray for forgivness becouse we belive that we dont need it(becouse we were supposed to be Gods, no we are humens with spark of God within but this not means that we will be not punished with Satan if we are on his side becouse he himself was also created from the same breath but without "earth" withou phisical body). If you trust me just for a second and see this materials after you will surely understand what I'm talking about:
See this : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USZxS0SMIT8
and read that book:
A Trip into the Supernatural
I found many others clips and books discibing the same stuffs if you do your reasearch you will know what I mean. The 1st few mounts at this new life that I have now was hard and was full of reading and convincing and unconvincing in the same ideas but after all now I belive only in Jesus and my life is better . Yesturday I even asked him if it is possible to make me not need marijuana any more becouse I could not live without it I got always hard depresions and so on and I was uncapable of making my meditations so loving without marijuana but now I just dont need it at all and I'm devine happy . 5 years of exploring NewAge and never got to that level of happiness , love yes but happiness rear .
*God made us learn and belive all this satanic shit so we can know what it is about and be sure it is the biggest deception ever and from that point start to show others*
God bless you and show you the way ! love you dear brothers and sisters don;t hate me for breaking your world I know what it means but if you can just see what I;m telling you and understand it you will see with different eyes and feel with refreshed not corrupted heart.
I don't hate anyone or anything. You mentioned that you felt better when you turned towards Christianity and never felt that was when you were part of the new age movement. (By the way this is not a religion. A religion is a structured set of beliefs that one must adhere to at all times. The new age movement and lightworking is about freedom and being able to express yourself in any way you choose to. Its the opposite of a religion. A religion is also a belief system.) When I realized that I'm a lightworker, I felt incredible and I still do. As a lightworker, we value love as our highest priority. (This is what I noticed and I value that above all as well.) Also, we are all part of God, so yes there is a god, but unlike the Christian religion that was turned into a control system by the dark ones, I don't feel that he's a judgmental being who will throw you into a lake of fire for all eternity if you don't listen to him when he says not to look at someone you're not married to or sleep with them because the government capitalizes off of marriage and makes it contractual. He's not a figurehead or a he at all. Everything in existence is one and the one is called God.
To me, worshiping a being who will seek revenge on you for not giving all your power to him and will even burn you for all eternity, is much more that of the dark side (which you term Satan, as he's just a dark force, but maybe a being. I don't know.) than being of unconditional love and compassion as a lightworker. Everyone is here to experience what they came to experience and I'm proud of you for finding your niche, but you must understand that not everyone feels the same way you do. There are so many wars out there under the false pretense of religious warfare. Do you really think that one religion should be all there is? Do you really think it would be best to do away with all religion? Neither is correct. Religion needs to stay in effect in 3D as of right now, but people like me who don't want to be religiously bound will be going to a place where religion is not present because that's what we wish to experience. I'm in a lot of pain from the negative emotions and I don't have a desire to be controlled by a fiery, judgement wrathful god of Christianity. I want to be free and full of love, compassion, and harmony.
Now, the reason I'm picking the worst traits that I can think of on how I see Christianity's God is because I want you to see how I view that model of a God. This is not to say my way is better because it isn't what's right for you as you said. I just want you to see why I chose the path I did. I grew up as a Christian mind you, and I was taught BS for quite a while. My aunt who is a hard core Christian wouldn't accept me fully in some ways, but wouldn't be mean to be about them either. I met Christians who are hardcore into it who forget that do unto others as you would have them do unto you is a part of their faith. (Unless they really wanted to be tormented their selves.) That's actually something I could see the real Jesus saying as it describes service to others in a way. Jesus did exist and he was a lightworker. He was human while here and probably an alien race. I don't know if this is something that was altered or a misinterpretation or not, but people saw alien races as Gods because they came from the sky with advanced technology and they probably met Pleiadians because Pleiadians are the race we are descended from. God (the alien races) created us. (We were created by the Pleiadians. So, Jesus was labeled as God because he was a Pleiadian. The star they saw heading towards the manger was a spaceship. Why do you think it led them to the manger? A shooting star could go anywhere and would be to quick to follow. A spaceship could go slowly for them and lead the way to him. He was a Pleiadian.
My comments will be shown with my name in pink with (Officer of the Love) next to it. This should help make sure you can tell them apart.
Author: Kelly Posted on: 07/23/2012 at 01:42 pm
Leija, opinions will haeppn like life let them come then allow them to go. They mean well. You are doing a great thing co creating consciouness is a great thing. We will bring about the full change ofï»¿ the collective moving slow and breathing we teach more at times by not doing. We plant the seed of change then we water it wilh love and understanding and a willingness to listen. You are doing a great thing keep doing it.:^)
So beautiful! He's right. You never really do reach what you strive for, but you reach the beauty every day when you stop striving. I'm going to add that line to my inspirational messages on my website. I knew this, but yet I didn't know this. By that I mean I tried to put it into practice, but in doing so, the putting it into practice became what I strived to accomplish. A complete paradox.
Here's some information I gave a friend on relationship issues.
Let me tell you how I see monogamy and polyamory and why. Not everyone feels this way, but its how I see things based off of experience. Monogamy is founded on drama and control. Two people fall in romantic love and the decide to be with each other. That's perfectly fine, but then they say that they can only be with each other and no one else. (Control) Then if one of the people in that relationship tries to break that control by being with someone new, then the other people might get upset and start throwing a fit at the person they no longer control/have a relationship with, and they might even lash out at the person they were with. (Drama)
In a polyamorous relationship, the people are in love with many people and everyone knows they are with other people and they don't try to control the people their lovers are with or their lovers. If one person decides to end a relationship or begin a new one, no one throws a fit or tries to put anyone under control. Yes, they might be saddened by the person's departure from their life, but they don't hold it against them for the sake of the relationship. Yes they could still have problems with the reason they broke up and whatnot. I understand that people come into and leave my life for a reason. Not everyone knows that.
So, that being said, you might wish to help yourself to release the remorse you feel when you feel that someone "cheated" on you and to help with control issues. I used to be monogamous and yes I do understand that there is pain involved when someone starts a relationship with another person. I didn't understand what relationship freedom meant either. I just thought that's how things worked in life. I even dated someone who was poly and I didn't like it, but I accepted it. However, one of the reasons I met her was that the cosmos wished for me to learn how polyamory works. Its like having many monogamous relationships at the same time, but without the drama and control from the relationship structure.
Polyamory isn't for everyone and I understand that. 3D is all about duality and some people enjoy that style of relationship. I think you could benefit from trying out a polyamorous relationship for a while and seeing how it feels. Now, because you really are being hurt by them being with other people, you probably should start slow. This means that you'll want to let the person know that you are trying to get into polyamory and need some help. Let them know that you do not wish to know who they are with and also meditate on the fact that they are with other people on occasion. This will help with alleviating any pain involved in the relationship.
Learn to add the element of love to any hardships you see while meditating. Know that whenever you clear negative energy from your life, you'll need to release it in some way. This could mean that that relationship falls apart and you get upset at them or whatnot. Do your best to mitigate the pain and allow yourself to take a while to calm down from it all and then try another polyamorous relationship when you feel comfortable with it.
You might even try another monogamous relationship for a bit and think about being with other people as well as your partner being with other people. When there isn't any pain involved in thinking about either of those, then you'll want to bring up the possibility of being polyamorous with your current partner. You may or may not choose to stay with that person and if you choose not to be with them, then you can try to find a poly person to be with again.