Well, it's definitely tough work and a struggle existing here in the 3rd density... But it will just make ascension feel all the more wonderful once we finally get there! ;3 Just such a HUGE feeling of accomplishment, a HUGE sigh... It's like being denied food for long, on the brink of starving to death, and then having a fantastical meal to sate you entirely and fill your body with that long desired nourishment! :3 Helping out in 5D will be the most fun and exciting thing ever!!! :3 Seriously I can't think of anything more fun and exciting in all of existence... 0.0 Here we have BILLIONS of souls here on earth all living in such a suppressed, horrible state... Entering 5D will be the most massive transformation of love, enlightenment, awakening and soul freeing. Everything most amazing and wonderful fuuuu!! Super cool!! x3 My one starseed friend I met a very long time ago IRL told me how earth is currently a "hot spot" and THE place to be in our universe right now... Ascension on the physical realm is something very rare, and all beings from all over have come to attend such a magnificent, amazing event!

So of COURSE you'll want to stay here and help everyone get settled into 5D!!! :3 That, my friend, IS your HUGE reward for having been incarnated here on earth and all the work you've had to do here! ;3 Helping out in a recently born 5D world will be helping out in a state of constant, magnificently huge and vivid love! :3 It will be the most relaxing and loving environment in the universe for quite some time I'm sure! ;3

From my understanding, we will be eternal being with our human base physical form once the 5D world is finally established. >^.^< So if you choose to be reborn again, you'll have plenty of time to decide that. ;3 Of course pain always sucks to feel... But I personally embrace pain, and thank it for the valuable lesson teacher it is! >^.^< No pain no gain as they say! x3 Souls like you and I don't have much left in the way of learning painful lessons though yes... We are ready for the higher densities of love and a less painful life! But the main reason we are here is simply to help those FINALLY making that trip to an ascended state of 5D love remember! It is most likely the cast that our eternal selves volunteered to be here at this time! We are but brave soul warriors of love who were willing to enter this low density once more in order to bring our brother and sisters who are now ready to join us up! ;3 We are on the front lines of the battlefield here! It shouldn't be much longer until the war is done, and it's now time for that final push into 5D! >^.^< Idk... I enjoy being here for all of them and revel in the idea that all of this is my mission and what I'm doing is truly important and meaningful... So I don't mind my existence at this point at all. ;3 I am of course so, so very excited for ascension and simply cannot wait for all of it~

I was just talking to this guy about pain and trying to help him get over his Grandfather that died recently! Anyway, I ended up typing this to him in our conversation, and i think I articulated it pretty well, so I wanted to share! ;3 "Pain occurs in the physical form when our body is trying to tell us something is wrong with it. It's a way to tell us when we are hurt, so that we can fix it. Mental and emotional pain in the non-physical universe works EXACTLY the same way, only you feel pain because of a mental or emotional problem or issue. Just like pain in the physical, you have to fix the problem, but instead of physical, this is done through a mental process and thinking in the correct ways. All pain and suffering in this world is something that should be used as a valuable learning point and a challenge for you to over come, because that is the true nature of pain." I just think it sums it up pretty nicely! >^.^<

I somewhat know about what you mean when you talk about being on fire and being energetically shredded when something becomes too intense... >.> A month or so ago, when the avengers movie came out, I was hanging out with a bunch of old friends who all seem to be so very imbedded within the lower density... >.> They brought me down to their level as I was hanging out with them all day it seems... And eventually, when we went to go see the movie, a headache I had started to develop turned VERY bizarre, as my consciousness became disrupted, and a very odd, distant sort of sensation took me over. >.< I felt as though I was going to pass out from all of this and I finally asked to be taken home (as we were waiting in line for like half hour already to see the movie on opening day). But yeah... Lower densities are very dangerous to us right now, and when things become too intense as you say, they do indeed become too much to handle! >.< Besides your guides shielding you, don't forget to shield yourself as much as you can! :3 We are beings with infinite power an capabilities once we tap into source from what I've heard! ;3 So ask for God's protection as well, and to help lend him your power! >^.^< Your shield I believe is as powerful as you will and TRULY believe it to be on you! :3 Hope everything will work out and you stay safe! >^.^<

People are simply fooling themselves if they think they have found their twin flame on a realm and place like earth... x3 It just ISN'T ideal at all for a third density situation... >.> There is ALWAYS more you could learn and take away from your experience here without them! I mean, I know if my twin flame was here on earth and I met them? My world would be complete... ALL that would matter to me is them, and they would take up the VAST majority of my time and day, because I would want to dedicate my being and all that I am to making them happy and pleasured and yeah... x3 Please not to let those negative, ignorant comments effect you alright? ;3 Whenever you receive them, I want you to perceive such comments as the insults of a small child acting out, not knowing any better and not fully understanding the words he is saying to you. Because in all honesty, that's what they are showing themselves to be... An immature soul child... x3 If they were mature enough to understand their negative, hateful words, they simply would not say them... If they were like me and you, they would be only of love hehe... :3 So keep those things in mind! And always perceive those sorts of people for what they really are! Someone immature and doesn't know any better...

That second one there is the same case, but pushed much farther into ignorance and the immaturity scale yes... 0.0 *hugs* I'm sorry you have to deal with such people yeah... I've encountered the EXACT same thing before... I found it in some girl online who had a VERY manipulative boyfriend... I had gotten to know them both, and he had shown himself to be a complete "user", and basically using her... Long story short, I tried to warn her of his true nature, she is in love, and so hates because I "insulted" her boyfriend when I all I did was simply told her of his actions. x3 I talk to him, and he twists and manipulates my words to make it seem like I'm insulting HER now... He does this to make me seem bad, and to hurt her even further... It was all just bleh...

Please remember to keep in mind how we can only guide and give helpful advice... Those who are so, so very immature and ignorant, they cannot HOPE but to comprehend or understand our words yet... 0.0 They will lash out like this, because they are but children who don't understand the nature of true reality, they do not understand what it means to love... They don't understand much of anything at all! >.< I don't need to see the full conversation hehe... You need to put all of this in the past alright? None of it is your fault, none of it is your pain or issues you need to work out here, it is all them... All of their hateful ignorance being displayed. I want you to simply let go and forget about all of it alright? Put them both on ignore if you they are going to continue saying hurtful, hateful things...

Dealing with such people will always leave you utterly drained and in a sad mood... And I'm glad to hear you are starting to feel better despite that conversation. >^.^< Go do something fun on your break! :3 Do something that you used to a REALLY long time ago that was always fun and entertaining to you, but you stopped for one reason or another. Go back to it and try and experience the joy it once gave you. Idk, just a thought of something you could do for fun on this break of yours here! ;3

I want surround sound and an awesome cool speaker system too! T^T That sounds like a lot of fun~ :3 Also you has a woofer! It is a sub woofer?! x3 I'm not quite entirely sure if I know what a woofer is!! T^T Is it the box thing where base comes from?! :3 But oh yes! Use Mother Gai's energy to help heal and purify you and stuffs! >^.^< Now that you mention it, I'd like to connect to her again today and just dwell on her as much as possible for fun~ She is a indeed a big help when getting through any pain! >^.^< Hope you feel better soon and at max strength~

They seriously are just children having outbursts yes! x3 They are immature souls, or souls who have forgotten and are lost. >.> They simply don't fully understand yet the emotions and words that they yield, and use them out of ignorance and a lack of understanding mmm hmm. :3 I'm happy if any of my advice can help you~ My pleasure. >^.^< I'll definitely come to you if I never need help with anything spiritual as well! And thanks in the past for the healing help again, all of that pretty much went away completely! >^.^<

High quality sound can make all the difference and add so so much to any experience! I've only ever had dinky little speakers for my computers, must be fun to play games and watch movies on. >^.^< I don't know anything about the 7.1 and 5.1 numbers! x3 Is that like the quality of sound it is able to reach up to or something? 0.0 Sounds like you god a good price on that for sure though yeah~ :3 For the most part headphones work really well I think too! The quality is always really good with them! >^.^< I wonder what number of quality sound stuffs they generally have? x3

Omg I have next to know idea what you're talking about with all that heating and cooling system stuff! x3 But sounds pretty cool! x3

I'll I've done today is respond to some messages from different peoples, made and ate a sandwich, then went to the beach... Now I need a nap! Such a hard life I lead! T^T x3 I like how you said "power sugar" Surely you meant powder! But roflmao 'power sugar' just sounds soooo awesome!!! x3 I want power sugar in my coffee! And with everything really! x3 It's so tasty and gives you strengtthh!!! :3 Spaghetti with sauce and gooey cheese just sounds delicious~ My sandwich I ate will keep me fed all day for me! x3 Well... Ima try and nap! ttyl~ :3

Mmm hmm~ >^.^< Ahh! So 7.1 stands for seven speakers and the .1 is a sub woffer! I see!x3

I see I see! :3 But Tweeters?! Now you're just making things up! x3 Sub woofers and tweeters... They make up cool names for sound stuffs! x3

Yes yes! I a mixture of power sugar and awesome sauce on just about everything I eat! *tweaks* It's what makes me so super special awesome cool! x3 I just eat when I finish things I'm doing! :3 And always just one meal, with a bit of snacks sometimes throughout the day. ;3 I've been starved of physical affection my entire life sadly though... T^T I'm ready for ascension so I can finally have some hot, furry, alien loving please!!! >^.~< Furry aliens!! Furry aliens!! come on! Chant it with me!! x3 There's gotta be at least a few furry races out there are just zomg "outa of this world" Buduh phsshh!! x3

Oh and yes! My name is Tristan! ;3 I had some pastor guy or whatever tell me some story about someone prophecy about someone named Tristan way back in the day who was going to save something or do something? I can't remember... 0.0 But he joked around about me being Jesus born again or something like that? x3 Get this! My mother's name is "Mary" Lynn! And my father's name middle name is Richard "Joseph" !!! 0.0 So basically I'm Jesus! So wassup? I'm Jesus... x3 I asked my starseed friend about the real Jesus, he said he's up in heaven doing something though, can't remember what... x3

But your all time favorite guy name is Maximilian?! x3 That is just like! Such an evil, super rich person sounding name! x3 I just think of a douche bag who has tons of cash really! x3 It's a good villain name I think! x3

zomg, a sexy dominant quality to it... x3 I've NEVER understood that submissive/dominant aspect of sex being a turn on either which way personally! x3 ALL I care about is using my being and my will to make my partner happy and physically pleasured. My single biggest turn on is knowing that I'm making them feel good. >^.^< For that special person I love more than anything, I want to have them be in a constant of mental, emotional and physical pleasure... I will dedicate a great portion of my time and effort to making sure I am putting them in a constant state of bliss. ;3 That's why I know I couldn't be in contact with my soul mate right here during this time... As my mission would be SO much harder to accomplish rofls x3

Love and friendship is something I have analyzed to death with thought and emotion! :3 I've never had a real, serious relationship IRL whatsoever... >.> And am 25, and still virgin as I believe I've told you before? hehe x3 The two times I fell on love were both with people online, and both ended in heartache and hurt severely... But I was so so glad for having them, cuz they taught me so, so much about love. :3

Being a more high frequency being and so much more understanding of existence like we are... We general have SUCH a greater understanding of love and what it means to love as a result. The vast, VAST majority of these third density dwellers on this earth have NO idea how to approach romantic love WHATSOEVER!! zomg... x3 Also, the depths of love in which they can explore? They are always ones much more shallow of that which true, ultimate love allows... The problem and what's ultimately preventing them? Ego and selfishness... TRUE love is wishing someone infinite happiness and pleasure without YOU have being the one they are with yeah know? It sounds cheezy, and it's what they always do in romance movies, but it's true... x3

Generally, people get in relationships for entirely egotistical and selfish reasons... THEY themselves don't want to feel alone or want to feel loved. Basically, they get in a relationship TOO feel loved... Which is not a good bases at all... >.> I believe they, in a round about, hidden way, "use" each other for the feeling of being loved and cared for. Generally this is done through an initial romantic interest in each other (they find one another physically attractive, or immediately charming or something...) Love is something very blinding and confusing when it mixed together with ego and selfishness... It is only when you reach that high level of understanding of existence and learn how to be all loving that you are finally able to live selflessly and love others with NO ego whatsoever! ;3 Like me now adays... I can love others, and it feels me with such joy and happiness ONLY to do that... I require NONE of their love in return, and more often than not I get none in return! x3 I am oh so happy simply if I can impact their life in a positive way, and if I can make them feel happy or loved at all. :3

ANYWAYS! People don't understand all of this at all whatever... And so all of their romantic relationships fail, or they become stuck in them, or they simply reach a level of love that is not or deep or meaningful as it could go... There are many depths to love, and because of the nature of third density world like this one and the large amount of ignorance here, you always end up with these shallow, fickle, small glimpses of what a true kind of love can REALLY be... When you don't understand love, it can be something very blinding. Basically... What REALLY happens with most people and relationships in this density I believe, Is that they fall in love with the FEELING of love and being loved... But not the person themselves ... 0.0 Or not as much as they should be doing anyway... You need to live for others and dedicate your being and will to seeing them happy and content... Only then will obtain a true love, an ultimate love, a love that will last forever and never fade, and a love of the deepest and most meaningful value. >^.^<

*rant rant rant* Okay I'm done rofl x3 That's how I feel about love and understand it... And any attempt to connect to people in any sort of meaningful way on this earth always falls short, because people are SO involved with ego and selfishness... T^T And don't understand it this way that I do... There is a bit more too it of course after all that! Surely all beings in this world, as well as all of existence, are capable of being loved, an always deserve love! However, their are souls and beings who simply resonate and vibrate on the same sort of wavelength beyond all that as well. These are beings who essence just seems to mesh so very well with each other, and beings who just seem to "get" each other, and "click" on an entire higher level complete hehe. :3 These are the sorts of beings who will be your DEAREST, MOST closest friends/family in all of existence... This will also be the sort of being who is your soul mate. >^.^< The one who gets you the very most... Your wavelengths so in tune and close that you want to be with them always, and when are you with them, your existence is constantly heightened and intensified as a result.

But now I'm ranting on more! x3 Anyway, I hope that was all interesting enough, and I'm not being too too repetitive! x3 The beginning bit I had typed a while ago, and then I came back to this message and started up again, and it's almost 4 AM! So yeah!! T^T x3 *Is continuing to read the rest of your message now that I finally finished love tangent! x3*

I'd love to hang out with you after the shift. >^.^< I honestly don't know if I could have a romantic sort of physical relationship in this world at all though! x3 The human form just tends to repulse me so very much, both male and female... >.> x3 You have no idea how very furry I am here! x3 I think I could possibly be bi even for them cute feminine furry males! T^T None of that stops me from loving others so very intensely in heart and in mind though. >^.^< I simply don't have that extra will to pleasure and make them happy physically! x3 Idk... I'd like to believe that all this furryness nonsense that I am so passionate about is one of my soul's personal traits and style preference perhaps? 0.0 Part of my wavelength and vibration if you will maybe?! It's something very strange... It will be very interesting to finally know EXACTLY to what depths my love for furry entails. x3 But yes! We will have to do fun stuff and hang out IRL lots once we are able to travel easily and all this ascension stuff finally picks up! ;3

Well I guess Arcturians don't have blue balls from the sound of it if they don't have sex organs! x3 But they must grow some when they shapeshift to procreate yeah! x3 I'm guessing the Arcturian race is of a higher density? I dunno anything about them... But from the sounds of it, in higher densities, to procreate you simply need the sheer love between another being and the will to procreate with them. :3 No genitals needed! x3 No more painful child birth... >.> For that I'm very grateful~ I don't want my mate to be pained by our babies birth! T^T I DO plan on mating with my mate every god damn chance I get though personally! x3 I'm going to have them enter a constant state of physical bliss... Always touching them in sensitive places... ;3 Well okay, maybe we go out in public I'll stop... But ONLY then... T^T roflmao x3 We can always keep things exciting by changing forms and stuff too~ ;3

Daylily! Very cool looking flower :3 And it's from your world eh? 0.0 I wonder just how many plants and such have their true origins from other worlds like that. >^.^< That's cool you could learn more about your home world and stuff! I can't wait to learn about my past one! It's something so so very fun and cool and exciting I would imagine!!!

Black cloaks and such you say! I wonder what I wore on my planet and stuffs too! x3 I always pretty much die whenever I see feral wolves or foxes or animals and such wearing armor... 0.0 It just looks SO terribly cool and awesome x3 But if I were indeed a furry creature, then we wouldn't have any need for clothes for the most part... x3 Nice soft fur to keep you warm all the time~ >^.^< I guess neutrality was emphasized back on your home world though? 0.0 I just find that so terribly boring personally! x3 It just seems like the opposite of neutrality would be passion! And I love being passionate about things and loving them! :3 I love judging things on the basis of how much grounds they hold on the basis of how logical and loving they are... I don't like staying neutral, but formulating opinions and delving into areas with profound thought and love in order to understand them and know how to view them appropriately.

But perhaps your understanding of neutrality is different all together? I'd love to hear about it. >^.^< Black cloaks do just look pretty bad ass though don't though! x3 They just have this certain aura and feel to them huh? 0.0 :3 You'll have to get a nice new one yeah, gotta represent your home world fashion! ;3

Well! 4:30 AM now! x3 Is this message long enough for yeah?! x3 Probably one of the longest ever written on this message board, and maybe the longest you've ever received?! x3 Anyways!! rofls x3 G'night! *hugs*

The fact is, I don't get into relationships believing either one way or another if they will love me or not! I get into them and try and make them feel as loved and cared for as I can, and invest myself in them only because I want to make them happy and to help them in this life. :3 I KNOW that they SHOULD all love me in return... But it's the case that some are so immature at this time, don't understand love and aren't all loving yet, and so they more often than not incapable of loving me in return... T^T So it's not a matter of me finding people who will love be back according to how I feel about if they will love more or not I don't believe, but simply that the nature of dealing with people in a third density world, that is is a hard thing to ask of most of these people dwelling here.

Maybe I have lived as various animals throughout my lives as well! Like wolves and foxes and that's why I feel for them so? x3 Could have something to do with why I'm attracted for furreh thangs! x3 I'm just dying to know the real, true story behind all of it~ :3 It will be oh so fun and exciting to finally know! >^.^<

Procreation in a higher density world must be an entirely different beast from what it is here yeah. 0.0 Is it the case that a person will willingly volunteer to go and incarnate there? And how much of a say to the parents have in deciding who that being is? Perhaps they are a already a friend or family member who they wish to call forth through the procreation act already? Or perhaps it's the case that procreation in the higher densities isn't anything like that all? 0.0 Personally, how I would view the act of procreation if I were dwelling in a higher density, is that it is a means for two beings in extreme love to spark a COMPLETELY new being altogether... 0.0 It would be a being that is very similar to both your wavelengths, but slightly different, and an entirely new entity all together! :3 It would be the birth of an entirely new soul, and something VERY rare and magical to happen perhaps... The product of two enlightened, all loving souls who come together to make one of the very ultimate creations in all of existence yeah know? ;3 But your race has 5D-9D spans huh! I'd like to know what all of those even higher densities means if you care to explain or have a link! x3 I wonder what the highest one is too and what's that like! :3

Just thinking of my "friends from home" and what they might be like or who they might be insights this vivid feeling of love and connection within me. x3 It's really quite amazing and cool~ >^.^< I might just go and do that! Meditate on them I mean hehe! Thx for the idea~ >^.^< I never been very good at all that meditation stuff though... I never get any real vivid or in depth experiences from it! T^T

And ahh, so that's what neutrality is all about, being in divine balance! :3 Does sound very nice hehe~ I think it's the natural state that all souls strive for... The calmness and oneness after the constant struggle and rippling waves causes to get out of a third density and understand what existence is all about! It does sound beautiful indeed yes~ >^.^< And always peaceful. :3

I would imagine that ALL those higher density dwellers are being that are very spiritual hehe. :3 As they are all aware of their eternal selves correct? How can they not be?! x3 Archery does seem like something very pure and flowing yeah. And it would be one of those VERY most basic ways for a human to kill an animal in order to eat it's meat... So the weapon must have a very embedded aura into the natural flow of life everywhere yeah know? :3 Very cool you know of being a druid and all your past lives and such! I can't wait to learn of mine too!~~~~ >^.^<

In the higher densities you don't have attachments to anyone? 0.0 But what about twin flames and soul mates? What is love if not a very deep mental and emotional attachment to other beings? I am all for loving everyone equally... At least, I have found how to care and love everyone in all of existence. But won't there always be those beings who resonate more with you and you just somehow 'hum' more in tune with? It just seems somewhat boring to me really for everyone to love each other EXACTLY equally... The true personalities of individuals and their special style preferences. Their own unique spin and taste that they will always apply to any creative endeavor... I LOVE how very varied and different people's individual selves are. I love it when people are vibrant expressive beings. And although each persons expressive deserve equal love and praise, I really feel as though there will always be those types of individuals in which you resonant and vibrate closer with... Idk, I would think that such a thing is a an added bonus, extra fun aspect of what it means to exist for an eternity of time. To search through all souls and seeing JUST how deep your love and intertwine with each each one. :3 I've always been someone who has loved the rare, the different and the unique. It just seems to me that if you loved all beings in existence equally, then it's something plane and could become mundane after a while? Idk... I DO love all things in existence intensely, I just feel like there are those special, rare things that I could love even more intensely. ;3 If it were that way as well, I think people would strive to get to know one each other more! People would be more genuinely interested in one another, always trying to strengthen their loving bond and grow it deeper with in one another.

And it may be a condition that we know everyone has their own path they wish to follow, so leaving us or transition through death doesn't effect AS much in a negative way... But won't it always hurt at least a little bit to see our loved ones go? Won't we miss them and be happy when the return? It just seems like such a higher density world that you describe would lesson everyone's passion, and as a result their range of emotion! T^T That's why I feel uneasy at the mention of 'neutrality', I just feel like it's a word also associated with 'indifferent', and not caring one way or the other? To me, love IS caring about all others... Doing your best to have them be happy! :3 Love IS being attached to others... It's investing a piece of your soul into them, and it's an intimate connection in that way. But when you understand that we are all eternal beings, that attachment is one that is ALWAYS good... Never too saddening or bad when you part, re-assured that you WILL meet again eventually. >^.^<

Sorry if I misunderstand any of this all, and I'd love to hear you elaborate on this concept of neutrality! But that's how I really feel about love and existence with my limited knowledge and information. :3

Isn't it the case that in a 5D world, we have knowledge of our eternal selves, and we can live in that 5D world for an infinite amount of time if we wished to? That's what I've heard! x3 So I just thought that 5D would be a lot more lax about those sorts of things like being born into such a world as a 5D one. Because it IS so advanced and it could be a permanent destination if they would like it to be. But I guess it's still set up much like that of the 3D in regards to bringing souls to that place of existence? :3 Maybe something like I described in creating utterly new types of human conscious type soul beings is reserved for the VERY highest sorts of density. ;3

Over population would quickly become an issue if you all lived forever! x3 I still find that very odd that you see each other exactly equal in the way of love! A romantic relationship with anyone you meet at any time?! x3 I am able to view sex as something very detached from love, but I think what is required for the most meaningful of a romantic relationship would be your souls resonating so very close together! So I can see there being no need for a monogamous control system for sure hehe. Love and sex isn't anything that should be limited and confined by a jealous, monogamous control system. :3 Love is not jealous and is unconditional... There are no conditions in which people should meet to be loved, and so all things should be loved. I do however yeah... Believe that certain beings can click on a deeper level when they have closer wavelengths... >.>

Sex is merely a tool I would like to use to pleasure and please those ones I love yes. >^.^< It definitely isn't the most important or only aspect of love at all! Just a very fun physical one! x3 But the way you describe every day on your planet being more exhilarating than any orgasm as earth sounds like the best thing ever! x3

6D sounds fun! :3 The idea of expanding my consciousness further and further seems like something scary, and a bit hard to grasp... x3 But I'm sure it's simply just amazing once you are able to get to those places mmm hmm! >^.^<

Yeah, meditation sounds too fun~ I'll have to try it lots more and just be patient and practice lots I believe! I really need to try and FEEL and will myself in certain directions more... As I can feel the power and potential behind doing that, it's just a bit hard to grasp and vague for me currently. >.< But thanks for the info about mediation and such, I'll definitely attempt it more. >^.^<

Ahh, so that's what being spiritual means to you. :3 I think it needs a different word really! x3 Like spirit enthusiast and helper?! Idk... Something more fancy and concise... x3 That one main function of the Arcturians is definitely of the noblest best things you could ever hope do do in a 5D here for sure. >^.^< I'd love to do help out in something like that so badly~ Just to go around and spread love to where it's needed most and liberate those in need! :3 It would just be the absolute best, yes yes~ Very cool that you are one of the elders of your race! >^.^<

To focus on a such thing does seem the natural result of an evolved people and love, so i would assume most races would end up doing such a thing eventually! :3 What was fun to do in the middle ages?! x3 And you remember running your care off a bridge with a bunch of friends in the 60's who wanted to transition through death? 0.0 That just seems so tragic a thing to do though! T^T

Breaking down the Soviet's society with blue jeans and rock and roll?! 0.0 x3 I have severely underestimate the power of blue jeans! x3 I like dark blue ones personally~ :3 I'm again so sorry to hear it was so unbearable that you and your friends felt the need to kill yourselves like that... T^T I can't wait until I remember my past lives like you hehe...

Mmm yes! But I think we might just have a semantics problem going on here! You see! How I view "attachments" is more like a "connection". I feel that I am connected to all things, and at one with them. :3 I view love as a bonding agent! x3 As I go through life and existence, I can send my love roots into all others and intertwine our beings as I encounter them. Sending them my love... I do understand how everyone and everything has something beautiful to share~ But for some I think my love roots might go deeper into and take a hold of even stronger~ >^.^< It's not that I won't take away ALL that I can from each entity I encounter! I just feel that every soul IS an individual and has their own personality and vibration, and that BEING a being that has something unique to and s pecial to offer the world would naturally resonate with other beings who have similar quality similar things to offer the world! I just feel it's a natural consequence... And I know that love isn't jealous, so that wouldn't be a problem, and I feel as though this would sort of be a more fun and exciting way to have existence set up is all I guess! x3 Why? Because contrasts and the up and down motions, opposing sorts of forces is what makes an experience in the first place, and puts things into perspective! But it may be the case that with my limited perspective I simply can't understand love to it's fullest, most magnificent depths, so you might be right about all this equal love stuffs. x3 Like zomg... Just being able to love EVERYONE in the world as dearly as my soul mate? 0.0 That would be something the most fucking intense and awesome ever... x3 So either way it's set up, I'm good! ;3 And the more and more I think about the way you describe it now, the more I am inclined to believe you... It's making me want to cry it's such a beautiful thing to thing to think about... My god!! T^T Thanks for discussing it with me and helping me to understand~ >^.^< Loving the very uniqueness of everyone and understanding how valuable and magnificent each soul is and enjoying everything they are willing to offer, yes yes ~ >^.^<

A twin flame and a soul mate are those things?! If that's how it really is, it just seems completely narcissistic doesn't it?! rofls x3 Very cool and interesting to think about hehe. :3 I guess your not sure entirely on the soul mate though? We'll just have to find out after the ascension and such~ >^.^< I feel that I am able to become EVEN more all loving after having this conversation though! x3 It's fun! x3 Thanks again~ x3

Yes yes~ Thank you for demonstrating how loving everyone equally wouldn't be boring with those examples~ I like how you say "love is not one flavour". >^.^< This whole conversation is just having me beam with love now~ >^.^< Love is just the greatest and so much fun! x3 I love love~~~~ >^.^< Different resonations and flavors of love indeed! :3 all equally important and meaningful in their own special ways~

When you say "neutrality" I imagine these gray aliens who are just like indifferent to everything are just like "meh..." x3 Kind of like these neutral aliens from an episode of that futurama show! x3 I do realize it's a very 3D perspective, and that's why I'm trying to understand it and figure it out. But talking to you now I believe have a much better understanding. ;3 Balanced and equal on every level, yes yes~ :3 I'm glad to hear you still have passions! But passions in everything~ Just sounds amazing~ >^.^< I am able to see past a 3D perspective! Or at least understand past it hehe! I will always be a bit limited here of course, but I do love love the idea of how you describe it now yes~ >^.^< *Is still feeling as though love is being directly shot into my body* x3

Damn you dark ones... T^T *sigh* Their reign is coming to a close though... And there will be no more pain or suffering here shortly~ :3 We must do our best to ease it for others as it still exists~ And to invoke light and love into all those around us~ >^.^< I have no idea how a planet is formed to be hollow no! 0.0 I'd love hear about it. :3 I have heard of those who live inside our earth in the channeled messages, and that we will meet them soon enough here! >^.^<

Oh yes yes~ I understand the importance of starting a new life! And it seriously is the most exciting, fun adventure that any eternal being could hope to have now isn't it! ;3 Forgetting of ALL things for a time and experiencing EVERYTHING as new once more... Gaining a completely unique life with no preconceived bias or notions about things~ >^.^< But while being done on 3D world, it's always something so much more harsh and painful... T^T We do need to do all of it to gain new perspectives on things and understandings we might have not been able to gain otherwise! :3 There's an infinite amount of worlds we could incarnate into~ And infinite amount of possibilities and understandings to obtain. >^.^< It's something beautiful if you ask me~ ;3

And ahh! You meant we could start a new romantic relationship with anyone at any time. I see and understand that yes~ >^.^< It's something impossible to do in the 3D world plagued with ego and selfishness... >.> But with truly evolved beings who understand love? I know how very super easy it would be! >^.^<

Well yes about all that about death! And again, I think "attached" was a poor choice of words on my part, as maybe it has more of a connotation of being "dependent" on others? What I more or less mean is being "connected" to others through love! :3 And I realize those love connections and bonds cannot be severed by death, and they are always there once established! >^.^< And that we are able to establish them with anything and everyone in all of existence~ The core of what it means to be an infinite being, is to go forth and establish these emotional connections to all things, and to develop new mental connections and gain understandings of what it means to exist for an eternity as well~

Idk... I believe why the majority of people are sad and in pain when someone dies is simply because as you said, they see our lives here as something finite. The problem isn't with attachment, but with a 3D perspective and understanding! Of course we will be in intense pain if we feel as though someone we love has faded from existence yeah know? 0.0 It would be an emotional love connection severed... A being that could further develop new things for us to appreciate and teach destroyed... T^T Even if I loved my mother and that acquaintance equally as intense and potently, if I lost EITHER of them forever, I would be saddened! T^T If my loved ones are in pain and are suffering, than so am I... If they would cease to exist forever, than a part of me would too yeah know! But that's a 3D perspective mentality, and I know we are eternal beings~ >^.^< So that couldn't happen! :3

I have always been someone never saddened by death... My grandparents and uncle and such died, and yeah... It never phased me every much, because from an early age, deep down inside I feel as though I already knew all this. ;3 I see how when you love everyone equally, it doesn't phase you when they leave for sure hehe. :3 So long as there's SOMEONE around, you simply could never become lonely or sad! x3 Just always in love, all the time~ >^.^< Everyone in existence is capable of the deepest and truest amount of love yes yes~ Some are just different flavors mm hmm~ >^.^< I look forward to connecting to more and more! It is the love that never ends and is infinite and yes!! x3

No you can't post some of your messages from this on your blog... It is private.... T^T ..... Rofl Jk of course!!! x3 Go ahead~ >^.^< You don't ever have to ask yeah know~ My thoughts and being are yours as well as everyone elses! :3 It would warm my heart if any of our conversation helped other in any way at all. >^.^< And yeah! Do it quickly while all of this is still more fresh in your mind! :3

Thanks again so, so much for talking about all this with me~ I feel as though today I have reached an even higher state of awakening and understanding of love and existence! >^.^<

When nature is in balance animals will no longer murder each other? 0.0 But how is it that carnivore creatures are to survive and eat without doing that? 0.0 I thought that rising and falling of herbivore and carnivore populations WAS a balance of animal life in nature. But perhaps that is simply the result of a 3D balanced animal nature? :3 Will humans and animals be able to gain sustenance from energy alone and so not require to eat anymore in a 5D world is it?

Yes yes! Not indifferent to everything. Rather, they are passionate and equally loving towards everything! I getcha! ;3 And how very brave, noble and amazing of the Greys to be stuck in 3D like we are, and to be able to be of love all the while! I've heard that the Annunaki races disguise themselves as grays and abduct people yeah to ruin their name... 0.0 Such bastards... I believe it was actually you who told me about all that before yeah! And you linked me this video before too and I watch and thoroughly enjoyed it so so much~ Thank you for showing it to me. >^.^< That lady is truly incredible... And I just wanted to hug her and love on her the entire time as a I heard her sad story... T^T

Oh yes! I see I see! 0.0 It's that centripetal force and constant spinning that causes the inside to become hollow! 0.0 That actually make so much sense~ :3 The center of the earth is filled with lava my ass! x.x (Like we've been told it is... >.<) I believe that theory came to be because it makes sense with how very much mass and density it pushing inwards towards the center of the earth? Also it's known the the tectonic plates move and shift because they all lay on a moving layer of liquid lava underneath that and such? But Idk... Who knows what we were lied to about yeah know? x3 I've heard they also have separate oceans though in the center of the earth as well? 0.0 And that they can view the sun from the center of the earth somehow? They must have their own plants and animal right? How does the sun get to them exactly I wonder! x3

Mmm I see I see... A bit confusing... A video of it would help to add a better visual for my mind I believe! x3 But I think I get the main idea. :3 Space time is something that's curved due to the force of gravity and things kinda of "weighing" it down you could say. You can think of space time as a piece of paper, and suns or planets and anything with mass as weighing down that piece of paper, and thus causing a slope for other objects to be inclined to be weighted down with it, aka, gravity. :3 Perhaps when a planet is created, it is essentially dropped onto this fabric of space time (when it is caused into existence) and then it somewhat bounced up and down on the fabric as it settles down upon it! ;3 This would be something that causes that hour glass sort of effect that you were talking about, and would be something inline with the physics of the universe as we know it! >^.^< Those other asteroids and various HUGE space materials that may be flying about at the moment of a planets creation? Those impacting the planet at the right angle would be something that would cause it to start spinning I believe ;3 Or it could just be spawned into existence while spinning as well I suppose hehe. :3

Omg... So if I understand what you're saying their correctly... Is it the case that the people inside the earth actually walk sort of "upside-down" when thinking about them in relation to us? 0.0 Like, as if the earth wasn't their and we could see them... They would be below our feet, and we would be below their feet? x3 That would be kinda cool. :3

Oh really? I was under the impression that if you fed a dog or a lion or certain carnivores ONLY fruits and vegetables, that it would get sick or something? 0.0 Their bodies have evolved for eating meat only to fill a specific niche, even the teeth in their mouths are all sharp because it's best for consuming meat. Humans are omnivores and have some flat teeth in the back there, and sharper ones up front! ;3 But I suppose all beings have the potentiality to become herbivores? :3 Also... It's the predator animals eating the prey ones that keeps BOTH of their populations in check. So would animals stop procreating all together as well? 0.0 Because we would all be over run with animals if they ALL at plants, or their wouldn't be enough plants for both species! x3 It is sicking to watch a hawk swoop down and strangle a mother lizard... But it is more sickening to see mother a mother lizard starve to death because there are so many lizards around that there is so very little plant food for them! T^T So it's currently the lesser of two evils yeah know? Idk how it will be set up in a 5D world? But that's how it is and has to be now... If the hawk ate the lizards food too even and green stuffs... Then there would be even less for the lizard to eat and it would starve to death as well! x3 Which would be more slow and horrible I would imagine... So there is currently no lesson that the hawk needs to learn, it is truly fulfilling it's duty and is in utmost balance with nature! T^T

I've heard about some monk or someone going for months and months without eating as well supposedly! :3 So maybe all of the animals will live off of energy once we get to 5D? 0.0 But then there would still be a growing population problem with them... >.< I will still want to eat as well because food is just awesome~ :3 And really it is an artistic creation produced by chefs! A self expression for you pallet! ;3 I've heard that most meats contain negative energy yeah... Because of the way the animals are treated before they are slain for consumption.... >.< I can understand how the human balance of life can be maintained by curbing procreation, but I don't see how that could be done for animals! 0.0 Who don't understand and seem to be so entirely run by sex, eating, surviving. It seems as though that IS the natural balance with them on our planet, so I will be very interested in seeing how that changes. Murder does indeed seem to be the natural order in the animal kingdom so far I can tell for them... Even in body, carnivore animals are completely designed and intended for killing! >.< I'd love to hear your thoughts after stating my case on all that hehe :3

AHH! The sun inside the earth is what gives them light and such... omg 0.0 That's just tooo fucking cool!! x3 I can't wait to take a visit and see it! :3 And omg not fair... I want a pet lion! 0.0 When can I move to inner earth?! T^T And mammoths and such too?! Very cool! 0.0 Maybe they got some saber toothed tigers as well! :3 This is truly mind blowing to think about~ x3

Ahh, now I can understand the hourglass shape thing hehe :3

But hmm... I still feel as though that all animal populations would increase exponentially and the planet would still be over-run with all the breeding going on! 0.0 But perhaps it's the case that animals evolve to breed so very much BECAUSE of what we have done too make them evolve in that way. :3 Humans and animals need a sort of mental and emotional population control yes... >.> In a 5D world that won't be a problem I'm sure... And both parents will only ever have one or two children, and only when it absolutely feels right to do. :3 I'd love to see nature go back to it's true balance that has been lost for so, so long...

But that's so oddly heart warming to hear that humanity was originally meant to take care of nature~ I'd love to do such a thing as that. >^.^< I guess that's more or less what a druid does right? ;3 To treat our earth right and to take care of all her inhabitants... To think of such a thing just fills me with love~ >^.^< I can't wait for all animals to be able to enjoy the abundance of food, yes yes~ None of the plant eating animals having to worry about being eaten constantly and stressing over that... And none of the meat eating animals having to worry about where they will get their next meal... >.< It does seem like a HORRIBLE system of stress and hardship... And like it COULD be better, so I am very inclined to believe all that you are telling me, and makes both logical and loving sense in that way. ;3 I like how you explain those other species just running off of threads of energy alone as well, makes sense to me and feels right! >^.^<

A group consciousness would be something very crazy to take part in! 0.0 Wonder what it's like... And I'd imagine how much more in tune with nature they are all than humans... We've been lost for WAY too long... It's finally time to find our way back! >^.^<

Well yeah... What I mean more or less by a "pet", is just an animal that I constantly hang out with and am good friends with. x3 Even my cat right next to me now, I don't view myself as owning him... Rather we live together and he's my bestest buddy~ I wouldn't be sad too sad if he felt the need to run away or something, I just want him to live his life and be as happy as he can be. >^.^< So yeah, I guess pet isn't that at all and just a very poor choice of words, my bad! x3 I HATE putting my dog on a leash when I take her out... It has always made me feel uncomfortable to do such a thing to her... T^T I do view them as my friends and not an object or something for me to own at all~ I just love love animals so much and I do have the utmost respect for them~ And I simply can't WAIT to be the best of good friends with him when our surface of earth comes to balance and we are able to do such a thing~ >^.^< And I heard we can communicate with them much better as well through telepathy or something like that too then?! 0.0 It will be sooooo amazing and fun and I can't wait!

rofl yes! "it makes loving sense" I'm glad to hear you'll use it from now on when it so strikes you to do so! x3 Mental logic that we feel out the answers with thought process, and Love logic that we feel out through an emotional process. Yes indeed~ >^.^< I so wish to believe that I am starseed of some very rare, furry creature kind of sentient race~ I would love that so much if it were true~!!! >^.^<

Druids doing human sacrifice? 0.0 I've never heard of such a thing. But maybe it was a big lie way back in the day to attempt to soil the good name of druid? :3 I want to learn how to do the magicks!!! T^T I want to shapeshift and such~ Such things will be possible after the ascension progresses enough correct?! I can't wait~ And reading further and your end bit you say I see that it was the case of the dark ones trying to ruin your good names! Ah hah! Damn them... >.<

*sigh* All of my relationships fall apart in this 3D realm... People are so entirely ignorant and silly when it comes to relationships and anything involving love here... x3 I poor SO SO much of my thoughts, emotions, effort and time into people to show them I love and care about them, and I always get NOTHING in return, or a some love back, and then nothing at all! x3 I'm making a rule right now, that I will not invest so much of myself and my time into others unless they are someone sad or depressed... I will use my love and time appropriately and efficiently, so that it stops going to waste on souls who cannot fully appreciate what I am giving them, or I am helping to raise their love levels because they need someone to love them... NO LONGER will I invest myself into 3D dwellers who are mildly content and happy with their lives... ONLY into sad and depressed people! T^T

I spent ALL day yesterday, HOURS AND HOURS with this person and investing love and myself, and it's ALL wasted I feel now... And I'm NOT going to do that again! x3 *Huge sigh of relief* Thanks for letting me vent to you! x3 And for being an actual good friend to me~ *hugs*

Why am I excited or enjoy thinking that my race is rare? I believe it's because I just cherish and love rare and unique things is all! :3 Perhaps if my race was more rare... I would be able to be something very valuable and hold unique, and rare insight on this world and how it is to exist, and so I would be able to spread all of that love and understanding to many people, idk! x3 But it doesn't really matter too much to me, just a thought. x3 In the end, EVERY soul and entity IS something intensely rare, unique and amazing~ >^.^< I just want to get to know and love them all really~

And yes, exactly! You get it there! ;3 It's something enjoyable to be unique and rare! We have more to offer, and we can feel special, desired and sought after in that way! :3 But it's the nature of a souls such as the ones we have to always be that way in the first plasce! So it's just something amazing and fills me with love! :3 And yes, I see you agree with me and say all that as I read further hehe!

Zomg.. I can't wait to shape shift~~~ *murrs and purrs* x3 Can't wait~ Seriously all my wildest dreams and phantasies will come true! x3

Oh yes yes... I've heard what happening here on earth is rare as well... And I just KNOW that with every fiber of my being that I would LOVE to come to a place during this time because it IS so rare and something so awesome and special! x3 So of course I find myself here at this time!!! x3 And So... All if it is going to start happening big time and will pick up sooon!! I'm going to love love love helping out with the ascension however it is I can!!! >^.^<

I just have so many animals and cute furry things I'd like to shape shift into really! x3 But fox might be the major one yes! ;3 I've always been strangely drawn to that animal and just felt such a strong sort of undefinable connection with the kind of aura and vibration it gives off. >^.^< But wolves too I love~ And a black panther I would love to be for a while~ :3 I just love a sleek, four legged figure with a muzzle, and soft fur and stuff~ Paws, muzzle, tails, hind legs... I'm utterly in love with all of those features that makes up a cute quadruped... x3 I could even be gay for some of the artwork I'v seen! Tail holes and sheaths are just too cool~ x3 And it gets to a point where I don't care if it's male or female... It's just too cute and I HAVE to pleasure it every possible way I can! x3 All that I am is just so, so entirely drawn to those cute furry things~ :3

Oh yes, I read that message on galacticmessages.com site :3 It's all so very true hehe... I have made it practice for entire my life to do such a thing I believe though, and I come to terms with such things whenever they arise, so theirs not much personal work for me to do in the way of all that! >^.^<

I think you need to mention their on your site though that those loving bonds we share with people that can NEVER be taken away or severed... It's not only that people get too attached, it's that they feel as though they are LOSING something if someone die or if they leave them! But that connection is ALWAYS present and you always have that person with you if you know how to acknowledge and contact them yeah know? ;3 And even if you do happen to lose touch for whatever reason? You WILL meet again... It's not the end! :3 And yes, in the mean time there are limitless amounts of other people to love equally as much! :3

PART 1

Dear Mytria and Mytre,

We speak with you now about the beginnings of our ascension.

Once we arrived at our new home in the Pleiades, we were finally free of war and fighting. With this freedom from fear, we could hope for a better life. We Pleiadians are so involved with our Earth Family because we totally understand the state of mind of many of you. We know how it feels to be offered hope of a new life and not be totally sure that we could trust this possibility. How could we take the risk that life could be filled with peace and calm when there had been so much war and disruption?

In fact, it took us several generations, which are longer than yours as we live much longer, to settle into the concept of the freedom to choose peace, love, happiness and joy. We understand how our dear Earth Family must decide to choose to live the hope that appears to be before you. After all, you have lived in illusion for myriad incarnation, so what if you believe in yet another illusion? At least this possible illusion is filled with multidimensional light and unconditional love. After living many years, and many lives, in darkness and fear, how can you turn away from hope?

It was the same for us. Also, we were very busy building a new life for ourselves, just as you will soon be doing. The building of our new world kept us occupied, however, the challenges of creating a new society were an ongoing challenge. For generations, we had traveled from place to place and lived entire lifetimes on Starships. Hence, our society was based on a smaller world. On the other hand, we did have long periods in which we were planet bound, but we kept running into the same issue, again and again. We would find peace, then “they”—usually the Dracs—would find us, and the fighting would begin again.

Even though we appeared to be hidden away, there was little security as we had found “safe havens” before, only to be invaded again. Because of our many dashed hopes, we had become attached to a sense of victimization. We felt as if we had little control over the outcome of our lives, our homes and our society. Do you see why we are coming to assist our Earth Family? We are your ancestors, and we know that we are responsible for the example that we set for those who we left behind. Yes, we did abandon many of you in our constant search to find security.

Somehow, through the process of creating a new reality and having freedom from fear and victimization, we realized that what we had accused others of doing to us, we ourselves had done to others. In other words, in order to change our reality we had to change our self. Specifically, we had to change our state of consciousness. We had felt like “prey” for so long that we had forgotten the damage that we had done to beloved Gaia, who had offered us a safe home. If we did not change, and we had to do so very quickly, we would do to our new world what we had once done to Earth.

We had left our home world of Lyra to find peace, but we did not have peace within. We had fear. Finally, we were learning that we could only create in our reality what we held in our hearts and minds. This information was very difficult for us to accept. When a society is based on war and victimization for a very long time, it becomes very difficult to find the enemy within. Only those of us who had a spiritual connection could begin to look into our own darkness. Fortunately, that was enough to turn the tide of our creations.

Those of us who had remembered our connection to Spirit, began to go inside ourselves to ask for forgiveness for what we had done to others. Amazingly, we all got the same answer, but in different words. The message that we got was, “You must forgive your self in order to accept forgiveness from another.” It was one thing to ask forgiveness of our Spirit, but another thing to ask our selves for forgiveness. First, we had to decide exactly what we needed to forgive ourselves for. We began to gather in small groups to find the answer to this question.

Fortunately, our group energy allowed us to go back into the history of our civilization in a detached fashion. Once we realized what we had done to others, we sought the answers as to why we had done these things. We realized that our sense of feeling victimized give us permission to perceive others as an enemy without adequate proof. Because of this decision making process, we had attacked without trying to talk and abandoned without trying to heal.

This realization was a vital realization, as it became a basis of our society. Once we found that our actions were based on fear, we saw that we had gone against the very core of nature, which we had thought has been based on love and acceptance. Therefore, now we needed to go back into our history and re-do our mistakes within our consciousness so that our new, habitual responses could be changed. Therefore, we reviewed our past to discern what decisions were made from a fearful stance and which decisions were based on correct perceptions of our “enemies.” After we determined which were our fearful decisions, we re-considered how we could have used communication and healing instead.

We were able to discern situations with the Service-to-Self enemies in which we responded with powerful tactics and the situations in which we became afraid and ran or attached without adequate thought. Going over our past, allowed us to gain the lessons that were hidden in our “mistakes” and the wisdom that we gained from our effective choices. Once we brought this information back to our people, it became easier for them to uncover their own guilt, anger and fear. Once others experienced and released their emotions, they, too, felt a need to go inside and confer with their Spirit.

First our communications with Spirit were mostly individual, but gradually small groups began to gather to release the old and feel the blessings of Spirit. The groups felt so full of Spirit that they wanted to show their joy by dancing, singing, painting, writing and many other creative expressions. The joy of expressing our creativity released a dark cloud from our consciousness that we forgotten was there.

Suddenly, our fear and sense of victimization was gone. We were too busy creating a new life to think about fear. Since more and more of us were developing an intimate relationship with Spirit, we could surrender protection of our world and society to Spirit. We also released that service to those who discovered that protecting others was their greatest expression of creativity.

We were finally settling into our new home and expanding our Galactic Duties when we began to discover a small voice within. We had started the next phase of our ascension without ever knowing that our process had even begun.

PART 2

Beloveds, we, Mytria/Mytre, have returned to continue our story.

We left off with the call of a small inner voice tickling our consciousness. After such a long time of moving, establishing, fighting and leaving we had lost most of desire for deep inner contemplation that had once been our keynote. Now, with peace and calm entering our lives again, we were returning to our SELF.

But, who was that voice that so many of us were hearing? Was it our Spirit in a more tangible manner, or was it a version of the SELF to whom we were returning? Some of us were too busy with their daily lives to place too much attention on these questions. On the other hand, those of a feminine, introspective expression, such as Mytria, could not ignore the questions or the inner voice. Therefore, Mytria will tell her story, as we were two people then. In fact, we had not even met.

MYTRIA SPEAKS:

I was among the ones who first banned together to connect with our Spirit, so the inner voice was not small to me. In fact, my inner voice constantly haunted me and would give me no rest. I could not sleep and ate only for survival. Therefore, I became increasingly tired and, eventually, sick. However, none of the healers could determine the cause of my inability to sleep, extreme sensitivity to food, aching joints, dizziness and confusion. They assumed it was because I was exhausted and recommended that I return home to rest.

However, sleep would not come. I tossed and turned and kept my housemates awake with my constant shuffling around and groaning. Finally, they came to me as one unit and suggested that I spend some time in one of the new Temples that were being created. Their suggestion brought the first inner peace I had felt since the inner voice began giving me instructions, which seemed impossible to understand. In fact, it was not until the moment of my beloved friend’s suggestion that I realized that I had actually been receiving instructions.

Unfortunately, these instructions were in a language that I could only receive in pictures, metaphors, emotions and disassociated thoughts. Perhaps one of the Elders who were establishing the Temples could assist me. I was barely an adult, only about 70 of your years. (As I said, we live much longer than you.) I had spent most of my life on a Star Ship, as I was born in-between our different planetary homes. Nonetheless, since I grew up with all the stories and was naturally VERY empathic, I felt as though I had lived through each planetary experience.

In fact, I was told that I had been with them then, as my life seemed to run in a sequence of constant birth, death, birth, death and birth again. As a child, I remembered these lives as clearly as I remembered what I had done the day before. However, when I became an adolescent I wanted to create a NEW version of myself rather than live what appeared to be a long sequence of the same version of life over and over again.


Perhaps, my confusion and dizziness was because all my other lives were coming back to me, and all at once. Every life seemed to be telling me the same thing and leading me to the same destination. However, I could not understand what I was being told or where I was being led. I desperately needed guidance.

Unfortunately, because our Temples were still under construction, we had to set an appointment to talk with someone and wait for an opening. I will not use segments of years, months or days, as we counted time very differently than you do. I will just say that I was forced to wait—and suffer—for what appeared to me to be a very long time.

However, my housemates had made it quite clear that I was being a disruptive influence to our unit. They had all found their positions in creating our new life and worked day and night towards that end. I, on the other hand, had not found that which my inner voice was guiding me towards and was riddled with fearful emotions because of my inner confusion. I decided that I should go into Nature and spend my time alone in the beautiful surroundings of our new, planetary home.

Consequently, the next morning before dawn, I grabbed a small “portable dwelling,” which was similar to your “tents,” packed some staples and simple cookware and took off into the woods. I had no idea where I was going or what I was going to do, but as I left my message for my housemates as to my destination, I felt a brief, very brief, moment of peace. Then I quietly left, closing the door on my first experience of a planetary home.

Since I had grown up visiting new planets, moons and asteroids, my survival skills in an unknown terrain were excellent. I never thought for a moment that I would be in any danger. Besides that, I had always had an attachment to the land of any area that we visited. In fact, it was my guidance, along with others, that assisted us to find this beautiful world of abundance and peace. Now, I had no idea where I was going, by I was a born navigator and knew I could return to our small village when it was time for my appointment.

I walked all day before I found a sheltered place where I could put up my dwelling. With my dwelling constructed, I sat down to eat some of the simple food that I had quietly packed. I only brought enough food for a few meals, as I did not want to take from my dear friends. Besides, I was quite confident that I could live off the land. As I ate, looking out into the ever-darkening sky, I felt calmer than I had been since my inner voice had started screaming in my mind. The food actually tasted good, and I enjoyed every bite. Surely, this was a sign that I had made the right choice…

To the contrary, I woke up to the first storm we had experienced since we landed on this planet. I awoke clutching a small blanket and realized that my dwelling had blown away and my eating utensils where scattered all over the area. Some of them I never found. I had wanted an adventure, but I got a bit more than I had counted on. I knew better than to walk around in a storm, so I took what I could gather and huddled under the lip of an overhanging rock.

As I sat against the rock I mused. I had walked since before dawn and only stopped when it grew dark. Then, I stayed up until late watching the new star systems in the night sky. I can only imagine it was because I was so tired that I did not see any of the warning signs for this huge storm. And, why did I not wake up sooner? Perhaps I had lived in a village too long, and I had lost touch with nature. It definitely appeared that I had lost touch with my self.

Since the stars were now invisible, and they were the form of navigation that I had learned on the Star Ship, I had to stay put until storm ended and the skies had cleared. Only the great fatigue that I had been suffering for many rotations of our moons, could allow me to fall asleep in the midst of a huge storm. I do not know how long I slept, if it was actually sleep, as my mind was seeing that which had up until now evaded me. I remember repeatedly saying in my night body, “I must remember this dream.”

I awoke to a beautifully clear day with that thought in my mind. However, I could not remember the dream. I only had the same flitting images that had been haunting me since the voice began. However, the dream seemed to place these images in a sequence, which—of course—I could not remember. A great light that was shinning on my body, drying my clothes and warming the rock had awakened me. I was lying back against the rock that had offered me shelter from the storm when something caught my attention. When I looked more closely, I saw that the rock glistened as if a million small stars were embedded within it.

I had been to many planets and seen many landscapes, but I had never seen a rock like this before. I decided that since the storm had brought me here, I would stay here, against this rock for as long as necessary. However, what was left of my food was gone, so I had to remember my empathic skills of finding water and “knowing” what was edible. It was these innate abilities that had brought me purpose on the Star Ship, a purpose that I had lost since we had settled into our new world. The water was found, the food was located, the night skies were mapped and I was—useless.

Perhaps that is one of the reasons why I had been having so much difficulty. I had not found my place within our society. I was too young to serve in the Temples and too old to sit around, which is what I had been doing. No wonder my housemates had tired of my presence. With the thought of my inability to find my “place” I drifted off into sleep—or was it a deep meditation?

PART 3

MYTRIA CONTINUES HER STORY:

I appeared to awake, only to see my physical form hunched against a huge rock, clutching a few possessions. As I looked at my physical self I could see how her inner conflict had robbed her of her beauty and made her body overly thin and pale. In fact, I could see how she was very sick and in great need of healing. However, it was not her body that was ill, it was her mind. I went over to her sleeping form and touched her head. Instantly, the look on her face relaxed and her breathing became long and rhythmic. Now, it was safe for me to leave her.

I, the part of her SELF with whom she has not, yet, connected, recognized the rock immediately. The rock was a Sacred Rock, a Portal into the realms of the higher frequencies of reality within the planet. I stood before the rock and allowed my spiritual essence to breathe into it, as a toned with my etheric voice. Slowly the Sacred Rock began to glow brighter and brighter. Gradually, a circular pattern began to glow inside the small area that served as a roof for my physical form.

The circular pattern pulled in my breath and beckoned me to tone louder and louder. My voice did not awaken my sleeping form as it was unheard by her physical ears. However, the Rock heard me, and the Portal responded by opening. My etheric essence flowed into the Portal, which transported me into the Heart of the planet. Within this Heart were many other etheric forms that also had physical forms on the surface.

One of these etheric ones was of a male essence. We were instantly drawn to each other, and when we touched it was as though we merged. We were quite happy with this degree of intimacy. In fact, without words, we let each other know that our joining felt natural and extremely nurturing. Then, our attention was drawn away from each other as a huge being of Light entered the Circle, which we had not realized we had formed. We both recognized him/her as an Arcturian.

The Arcturian stepped into the Center of our Circle and reached out an arm of light to introduce a beaming Light of somewhat humanoid form. This Being was of a feminine energy pattern, and she introduced herself as the Elohim for Alcyone. Even though I had never heard that word, Alcyone, I instantly knew it was the name of the planet. I will endeavor to repeat what she expressed. I did not know that my physical self could not have understood these words, as they were in the Light Language that has evaded her so far.

ELOHIM ALCYONE SPEAKS:

“Beloved etheric representations of my new human family,
I welcome you to enjoy the beauty and fertility of my planetary form. The Arcturian and I have been sending messages into the consciousness of those who could hear us. You are now here in your etheric form, as your dense bodies cannot make this journey. The one whose form is known as Mytria has discovered my “front door,” and the rest of you are here while your physical forms are meditating or sleeping.

The Arcturian and I wish to tell you that you are on the cusp of a great opportunity, for my planet is about to become a Sun. If you can maintain a deep heart connection to me while I make my transition, you can join me in your multidimensional expression of form. Once, you have gained that form you can wear whatever frequency of body that suits your needs. You will loose nothing by this alteration and will gain a great deal.

However, the process of this transmutation is not for the weak of heart, the lazy or those who lack the quality of deep commitment. It was no accident that you have arrived on my physical body, as I have chosen you to be my Keepers. The Arcturians and I have watched you for many of your generations and have constantly been within your consciousness since you first landed here.

We have sent an open call to those who are willing to assist me in my transition. In return, I will assist you. The Arcturians will assist us both, as passing through the Corridor of physicality and into the higher realms is their Cosmic Service. We wish you to look around at the etheric form of those in this meeting, for YOU are the ones who have shown the greatest dedication and commitment to creating a new reality based on multidimensional light and unconditional love.

You will likely forget whom you see here now, as that is by design. We want you all to connect as ONE Light-force within your etheric body and to ground your personal and group commitment into my body when you return to your daily life. When you meet each other in your physical realm, you will feel a certain twinge in your heart and recognition in your mind. However, you will not know each other as you see each other now until the transformation of my body has been completed.

I thank you for finding your way here. I deeply appreciate it, as I have seen the difficult initiations that you have all completed in order to find your way to this gathering. You are my Protectors and the Keepers of my Flame. I KNOW that you shall find your way to next gathering, and we will meet again at the completion of our ascension.

Until then, know that I AM forever within and about you. I AM the planet upon which you stand, from which you eat, drink and bathe. I AM the land that gives you a home, the water that is vital for your life force and the fire that warms your homes and ignites your passion for life. I AM the air that you breathe and the skies through which you will fly your ever-transforming Star Ships.

I welcome you to my Planet, soon to be a Sun.
I welcome you to MY body and Soul.

We, the Arcturians, and myself are in constant communication with you. As I leave this Circle, the Arcturians will give a personal message to each of you. Therefore, line up one-by-one to accept your personal message.

I will not leave you, for I AM within you!”

As the Elohim Alcyone said the last sentence, her light disbursed in every direction. It went into the ceiling of our Inner Cave, into the walls, the floor, the many alcoves and into the etheric form of each of us. For a moment, I felt in complete unity with the Planet, and complete unity with the stranger with whom I has mysteriously connected. However, the light of the Elohim told us, “not yet,” and our connection was severed.

We were almost embarrassed as we lined up for our personal message. He allowed me to stand before him, and I felt as if my heart was broken. What was that connection? Who was that person? Last, but not least, would I ever meet him again?

PART 4

MYTRIA CONTINUES:

I am embarrassed to say that I vividly remembered the feeling of the merging with the male etheric form to the tiniest detail, but I could not remember my personal message from The Arcturian. Was I that desperate for love that I would disrespect the message that was given me directly from an Arcturian? Fortunately, I did not ponder that question when I first awoke. I was too weak. My etheric form had stayed out of my body for too long, and my body was going into shock.

I experienced two realities at once. I felt my etheric body desperately trying to get back into my physical shell, and I also felt my weak, cold and semi-conscious physical form try to accept its spirit. I was not dreaming or even meditating. I had a high fever and my body was turning blue. I was barely breathing and I was very, very cold.

I pulled myself into a tight a ball and pushed against the rock in an urgent and futile attempt to find warmth. I kept loosing consciousness, coming back, than passing out again. It would soon be dark, and the nights were very cold here.

I don’t know if I was conscious or unconscious when I saw a beautiful Lady of Light. She was huge and looked as though she was made of clouds and stars. I called to her to help me as she floated towards me. I don’t know if the next memory was real or a hallucination, but she floated right past me and into the rock against which I was leaning.

Blessed warmth seemed to stream from where she entered the rock, and I heard a haunting lyrical tone in my mind. Some how I found the strength to crawl towards the place where the Light Being entered the rock. I was so weak that I had to hold on to the rock to stand up, but when I did so, I feel through a slit, or was it the vortex, and into a dark cave. It was warm, and I heard running water as I fell off to sleep.

I don’t know how long I slept, but I do remember stirring to drink some water, then go back to sleep. After a while, I discovered some fungus growing by the water. I brought a piece of it to my nose and lips and sensed that it was fine to eat. I took just a few bites, then fell back to sleep, completely full.

Finally, I woke up feeling restless and saw what looked like a beam a light. Holding on to the wall of the cave to rise and to walk, I followed the beam of light to its source, which was the mouth of the cave. The air was clear and warm, and I felt better than I had in a long time. I had almost forgotten my “dream, meditation and/or vision,” but I remembered that the planet was beautiful and fertile.

I dozed in the Sun until hunger stirred me to find some edible plants or roots. The water that ran through the cave gathered in a small pond that was surrounded by plants. I recognized several plants as edible and found my one remaining bowl, filled it with water and drank while I ate the plants. When it grew cold, I went back into the cave to sleep. I’m not sure how long I lived like this, for I was so deep within my self that I often did not note the passage of days.

I lived in the now of nature. I ate when I was hungry, drank when I was thirsty, moved when I was stiff and slept when I was tired. I was outside when the weather permitted and in the cave when it was cold, raining or dark. However, sometimes I stayed up very late or got up very early to memorize stars and constellations. Then, when I was stronger, I began to wander the land to map that, as well.

I grew healthier every day and sleep soundly every night. My dreams were very vivid, but I usually forgot them in the light of day. I did not try to hold them in my memory. In fact, I did not “try” to DO anything. I lived with the land, looked up into the sky, soaked in the pond and rummaged for food. On day I found two rocks that created a spark when struck again each other, and I was able to make a fire.

In order for me to move forward into my greater expression of self, I went backward into the primitive elements of survival. After a while, even the memory of my merging with the male was lost from my memory. I could not think about what had happened before or what would happen next. I lived every breath in calm serenity. I think I could have lived my entire life that way, until I met him.

I had traveled very far that day and had found a wonderful lake with a waterfall and a lovely place to dive into the deep water. After my small pond, it was exhilarating to dive, swim and stand beneath the waterfall. I was having such a delightful time that I did not notice that night was approaching. Finally, I looked up and realized that I must hurry back to the cave. I climbed out of the water and was walking quickly toward the direction of my cave when I ran directly into someone.

I could not see his face in the dim light, but I knew instantly that it was him. It was the male with whom I had merged in the cave. But now he was physical, and so was I.

PART 5

MYTRE SPEAKS:

“Where have your been?” I spoke gruffly, perhaps to cover up the intensity of emotion that I felt at her very touch. “Your friends are concerned for you and sent me to find you.” I said in a softer voice.

“How do you know that I am the one you seek?” she replied with a resonance in her voice that instantly calmed my demeanor.

“I am sorry I was so gruff with you. It is just that I have been searching for you such a very long time. How did you get lost way out here?”

“I am not lost. I live close by.”

“Live?” I said trying to control my intense emotions. “There is no where to live out here.”

“Follow me,” she said. “I will show you my home.”

She walked away, and I followed her without question. We walked through almost total darkness, but never hesitated. As I followed her strangely familiar form, I became more and more enchanted by her. Who was she? Why did I feel like I knew her? I had never had these feeling for anyone in my life, and I had barely seen her face.

We walked for quite a while in total silence, while I tried to contain my emotions and see in the darkness. The moons had not come up yet and the sky was hazy, yet her every step was sure as if she had made this journey many times. Meanwhile, I was trying to maintain my dignity and not trip or fall. I, who took such pride in being a leader, followed her every footstep.

As if timed by some unseen source, the moons came up just as we came around a huge rock and entered a small area filled with flowers, plants, a small pond and even flat rocks that were arranged like chairs. How did she move those rocks? However, I said nothing. I did not want to embarrass myself again by speaking rashly. However, obviously, she was NOT lost, and I had greatly misjudged her.

“It is getting cold now. Would you like to come inside?” she said as if she totally trusted me.

“Ahh, yes,” I stammered in a very undignified manner.

“Let me start a fire, so you can see inside,” she said as she moved to a collection of rocks that created a small fire pit just outside the cave in a small, sheltered area. She collected some kindling and what looked like moss, struck two stones together, and instantly a small flame ignited the kindling. She had obviously lit this fire many times. Then she took, what looked like a grid and placed it onto the rocks.

“I will make some tea to warm us.” She easily said.

“You have tea?” I said in a rudely, surprised manner.

“Oh yes,” she said as she guided me into the cave where I saw many herbs hanging upside down to dry.

“Where did you find these?” I asked, again in a voice that was too surprised.

She ignored my rude behavior and turned towards me to reply. However, when our eyes met in the flickering light, neither one of us could speak for what seemed to be forever. It was she who spoke first.

“I know you,” she said without any shyness.

“Yes.” was all I could say. I did know her, but I also knew I had never met her.

She turned again and chose some herbs, broke them up, put them into a small metal pan. She filled the pan with water from the clear creak the trickled through the cave and placed the pan on the grid.

“Would you like honey?” she said.

“You have honey?”
She smiled in response to my question.

“Ahh, sure.” I stammered again.

Rather than embarrass myself further, I looked around the small cave to get my bearings and to calm down. I could not believe my eyes. She had, indeed, created a home here, and she appeared to be alone.

“Do you live alone here?”

“Oh no! I am not alone. I live with Nature.”

I glanced around her home again. Off to the right I saw what was likely her begging. It looked old and well used.

“Yes, I see that you do. I am sorry for my rudeness. I have greatly underestimated you. I expected to find you, wounded, or worse, and in great danger. Instead, I see that you have created a lovely home. How did you do all this?”

“I asked the Great Mother for help.” She said, as if I would know what that meant.

“The Great Mother?”

“Yes, you know the Elohim Alcyone whom we met in the Core.”

“But, that was just a dream. How could you know about my dream?”

In fact, I was quite surprised that the “dream” instantly returned to my memory.

She chose to completely ignore my question and turned to create a small meal comprised of food that I had never seen. She took two half-gourds, which she used for plates and guided me to a small ledge. In front of the ledge with a small table made of intertwined twigs that served as a table.

In complete amazement, I sat where she indicated and silently watched while she put the plates on the “table” and went to gather the tea.

“I am afraid I only have one cup. Do you mind if we share?”

I silently nodded my head in amazement, as she handed me the tea.

“Oh,” she said as she walked over to another ledge where she had a small metal container. She brought it back and offered it to me saying,

“Would you like some of this honey?”

Again I silently nodded, as she poured a small amount of the sweet liquid into the steaming tea.

“Please eat,” she said and offered me my plate.

“I don’t want to be rude,” I said—to late—as I had already been incredibly rude, “but how did you know that these plants are not poisonous?”

“They told me.” She simply replied.

“Uh, how did they tell you?” I questioned.

“I merely smelled them and placed them on my heart. If they were poisonous, I felt fear, and if they were nutritious, I felt love.”

“But wasn’t that dangerous? What if you were wrong?”

“I trusted my self, and I trusted Nature.”

I said nothing more. I shared the delicious tea and ate the tasty plants. I guess if she could trust me enough to bring me into her home, I could trust her enough to eat her food. Trust? I pondered that concept, as I tried to think of the last time that I had trusted anyone.

Mytria’s awakening happened before we met, whereas my awakening started that evening. Everything that had been important in my life seemed unimportant compared to the simple peace that she shared with me that first night. I had been driven by ambition and trusted no one in my struggle to become a leader and Protector in our new world.

Interestingly, so many people trusted me, but I trusted no one. However, I did trust her. I ate her possibly poisonous food and drank her tea of an unknown “herb” without hesitation. In fact, as I sat on that small ledge, I knew that my life had changed forever. I would never be the same person again, which was a good thing. I had not been too fond of myself lately.

As if reading my mind, she looked into my eyes and said, “I was nearly dead when I came here. The Mother has healed me and has given me a wonderful life.”

She then took the plates and our one-cup and went outside to wash them. I said nothing, and didn’t even offer to help her. I had come here to save her, but it was apparent that it was she who would save me.

PART 6

MYTRE CONTINUES:

We slept together in the small alcove with her worn bedding. However, she had put something underneath it, and it was incredible warm and soft. She slept as sounding and sweetly as a baby. I, of course, slept very little at all. First, my mind would not stop. Everything that I had ever believed in, all the structure, lessons, discipline and obedience that I had grown up with had been revealed as the old paradigm for my past life.

As l lay there with her warm body next to mine, in fact, VERY close to mine, I knew that I was changed forever. I had no idea what I had changed into, but I was positive that the “me” I used to be had died a sudden death. As I lay in the warm, darkness with the sent of her body filling my heart, I reviewed my life. I was born to a military family. There was no choice as to what I would do. Of course, I would be a military person. It was our family’s legacy to protect our world, our way of life.

However, since we came to this planet, our reality had vastly changed. For the first time in my life, which was about 90 of your years, making me a young adult, I did not KNOW what my life would be. Before our people were able to “let our guard down” and feel safe in our new home, I had an important contribution. However, as I saw others settling down and totally changing their perspective on life, I held strongly to the indoctrination that I had had since birth.

Maybe I was a unique person, and maybe I could find a unique experience of life that was different from all the generations of our proud and brave heritage? That kind of thinking had been hidden in my brain since I was a small child. Since then, I had never allowed those thoughts to come to the surface. Then, I literally ran into a woman, experienced her entirely unique experience of life. It was than that those hidden, childhood thoughts began prying their way to the surface.

How could I possibly push aside all that I had stood for, all that I thought defined me a powerful man, and all that I thought I had loved? Now, in one very long night, I had become a totally different person. However, I did not know this new person, so I had no idea of who I was or what I would do. I only knew that I could not go back to our village in this state of confusion.

As if she had heard my thoughts, Mytria rolled over to face me with opened eyes and smiled. Now there was no question. Not only could I not return to a life that had become barren of meaning, I could not leave that smile.

Mytria quietly got up and started her small fire. I watched as she put water in her small pan to make OUR tea, then went outside, likely to wash. Without her next to me, I felt lonely. How could that be? I had just met her, but felt like we had always been together.

While she was gone, I went to my pack and got my communication device. However, it did not work here. Perhaps it is the cave, I thought as I rose to go outside to use it. Before she even turned around, she said, “Your device won’t work here. There is an etheric shield around this area, and no technology works here. Believe me, I tried.” When she turned toward me to continue speaking I experienced that same feeling of recognition and any doubts I had about staying vanished.

“You have decided to stay?”

“Do you always read my thought,” I said with a smile in my voice.

“Only when you are thinking about me,” she smiled in return. “Are you avoiding my question?”

“Yes,” I said. “I was thinking that I should ask you first.”

“Yes!”

“Yes, I should ask you or yes I should stay?”

“Yes, I would love to get to know you and show you my world.”

“I will have to tell them that you are safe and I am not returning—yet.”

“Then you will destroy that device?”

I had not thought of making my decision so permanent, so unalterable, but I realized that the kind of change I was facing would take my total commitment.

“Yes.”

“Would you like to help me find some eggs? I will ask the birds if they can surrender one for us.”

After we had eaten the surrendered eggs and more delicious plants, which she had seasoned with her unknown herbs, she showed me the portal out of the energy field and turned to go back to her home.

“Aren’t you going with me to make sure that I destroy the device?” I teasingly said.

“I trust you.” She said as she turned away.

∆∆∆∆

Her trust was the most amazing part of my experience. Not only did she totally trust me, which she said was because she knew me, she also totally trusted Nature. She lived her every moment in unity with the planet and the flora and fauna which whom she shared her life. There was no differentiation between what was alive and what was thing. Everything, even a rock, was alive in her world.

I wanted to share her world, but my scientific mind rebelled at such novel thinking. I had never realized how indoctrinated I was until I tried to change my mind. On the other hand, my body showed no resistance to change. I quickly forgot about my uniform and only wore what I normally slept in. The weather was usually very warm in the day and cold at night, but our bed was always warm.

When it was not too cold, we would sleep outside and she would show me all the Star System she had found. I was able to fill in many of the official names, but I usually preferred her names for them. In the day, we took long walks so that she could show me all the territory she had mapped. I assisted her with that. There was a plant that grew by a nearby river, which she had learned to “beat” into a kind of paper and she would write on it with “ink” that was sap from a certain tree.

Other plants could be dried and woven into a cloth, of which she made me an amazingly comfortable garment. She also showed me where all the eatable plants where, as well as the source of her honey. She showed me how to be so still that a bird would land on my shoulder and so quiet that I could hear the beating of my heart.

Fortunately, I was not useless. I had the strength that she lacked and a few tools, which allowed us to make our home even more comfortable. Yes, it was OUR home. We lived in it as one person, sharing all chores without any conflict or duty. If something needed to be done, we did it. However, we had our specialties. If we needed something built or moved, I was called in. On the other hand, if we needed to consult the Mother, she was called in.

Then one day she told me that it was time for me become ONE with the Mother Planet. I told her that I had no idea how to do that, and quite frankly, I did not think the Mother wanted to become ONE with me.

“How can you say that?” she said in a shocked voice.

“I am not pure, like you. I have killed many beings and destroyed much land. I have been a warrior where the love that you speak of is a weakness and the trust that you hold is mere foolishness.”

“Do YOU feel that way?”

I had to think before I answered her. She deserved a true response, and I did not know my truth yet. Hence, all I could say was, “I did feel that way once, but that me is no-more. I don’t know this new me enough to answer your question. I do believe you, and I see the great strength that you have gained not by domination, but through surrender. However, I don’t think it is possible for me to connect with something as vague as the Great Mother.”

“You do not need to surrender to Her, for I am Her representative. Therefore, you can surrender to me. It is often that way with men. Their minds are filled with protection and duty. Only deep love with a woman can allow them to release their protections and totally surrender.”

“How did you know that I deeply love you? I don’t even think I knew it myself until you said the words.”

Without a word spoken, she took me into our cave to give me the “proof” I needed.

As we merged through our love making, our consciousness intermingled so deeply that I could feel how she communed with all life. With this feeling shared between us, she showed me how to touch the land to find water, to smell a plant and put it to my heart to determine if it was safe to eat, how to ask a bird to surrender an egg, how to read the weather long before it changed and how to look into my SELF.

“Your relationship with the Mother depends on your relationship with your SELF.” She told me again and again. At first, the relationship with my SELF could only come as a by-product of my relationship with her. I had never been taught to have a relationship with my SELF. I was taught to follow orders, fulfill my duty and obey my commanding officers. I had spent my life being the “effect” of an external “cause.” If I was successful in my endeavor, I was happy and proud of myself. If I failed in my duty, I was ashamed and angry with my self.

I had not heard of the “greater” or “higher” version of my SELF that Mytria spoke of. The only greater part of me would be my fellow warriors, and my higher self was my commanding officers. I lived on the outside of me. Inside of me were bones and blood and organs that somehow survived their myriad wounds. I had no concept of a spirit me, or the etheric me that Mytria said she merged within the Core. In fact, I had no concept of that experience other than it being a “sexy” dream.

However, I had finally trusted some one. I trusted Mytria absolutely and completely. I trusted that she could make my energies rise up from my spine into my heart, or even into my mind. However, I had no concept that I could accomplish this without her help. It was this concept that disturbed me greatly. Was I becoming hypnotized by someone who was showing me a vision of reality that could never be mine?

Again, she read my thoughts. “I think you have had enough for now. It is time for you to go on a vision quest.”

“A vision quest? What is that,” I said in an angry fashion. She has tired of being my teacher, as I had become weak in her eyes, I thought. This entire experience was a fantasy, an excuse to ignore my duties. What had I been thinking? How could I dare to be different than all the men in as many generations as I could count? A vision quest, HA, get out of my home is more like it.”

Mytria did not engage in my inner battle. She merely turned and went into the cave.

PART 7

MYTRE CONTINUES:

When Mytria turned away without even answering my question and walked into the cave I was enraged. Who did she think I was, some toy that she could play with and discard when I became boring? Without another thought I turn and walked away as fast as I could. In fact, walking was not fast enough, so I began to run. I had not realized what good condition I was in after my time on the land, but I ran until it was almost sunset before I became fatigued.

The running had felt good; it felt real. Also, I was proud of myself that I didn’t stay there and humble myself even further. I had been following her around like a child long enough. I was a MAN, a Protector who had a bright future in the Military. How could I have become so lost, so ensnared in the trap of a woman’s arms? I guess it was time to go back to being myself. This time had been a fun fantasy, but I was now for reality, for duty.

I continued to walk at a very pace as the sun continued to move below the horizon. I was so engaged in my anger, self pity and, I hate to admit it, fear, that I was not paying any attention to the land. In my effort to forget about Mytria, I was trying to forget everything she had shown me. Then it happened…

I did not even notice how close I was standing to a huge precipice, nor did I notice the loose rocks under my feet. Then, before I could come out of my self-pity, I began to fall. Fortunately, the rocks tumbled beneath me so I did not drop straight down, but I could see a steep ledge coming up below me. If I went over that ledge I would be gravely injured or die. I grabbed desperately at the surrounding roots and plants, but they all broke off with my grasp.

Finally, I got ahold of a large enough root to bear my weight, but not for long. I had to find a way to land on that ledge, but it was over to my right. The surrounding cliff was all loose rocks, so I would have to create a controlled fall—like I had learned in the military. Perhaps I could swing from the root so that I would fall on the ledge, but I had to avoid the loose rocks. I had to decide NOW, as the root was giving way.

I focused my attention and intention on the destination of my “fall,” swung the root a bit to the right and jumped/fell. I did land on the ledge, but with such force that I felt my right leg break beneath me. I almost lost my balance, but somehow leaned against the wall of the ledge until I felt secure. I carefully sat down to assess the condition of my leg.

I was only wearing the short robe, tied at the waist with a sash, which Mytria had made me from her plant material. The very thought of her name brought not anger, but overwhelming grief. What had I done? Why had I become so angry? No, the proper question was, why had I become so afraid? However, this was not the time to ponder my erratic behavior. This was the time to think about my survival. I had only the clothes on my back. Some military man to run off into the wilderness with no supplies, not even a knife.

I pulled my self over to some long sticks, put them on either side of my leg and wrapped my sash around them to somewhat steady my leg. I would have to find a way to set it myself, if I lived that long. There was only a dim light and it was becoming cold already. I had to protect my body from going into shock. There was only a small ledge and loose dirt around me. Therefore, I dug myself into the surrounding dirt, leaving out my leg to avoid infection. I had no food, no water, no supplies and no tools. Furthermore, I had totally lost all touch with Nature and had no idea where I was.

All I could do not was sleep so that my body could begin to heal itself. I would have to control my mind and calm my breathing. I felt the adrenaline coursing through my body, which would keep me alert, when I needed to remain calm. My wound was not fatal, unless it got infected, which was a huge possibility in these circumstances. I would have to ask the Mother for help. Did I actually have that thought?

It was in that exact moment that I had the first experience of my “higher self.” I knew that my brain had that thought, but it was not the same brain that hysterically ran off like a frightened dog.

“Do not judge yourself,” came an unbidden thought.

And then, I had the most amazing experience of unconditional love, at least it seemed that way. Perhaps it was Mytria, for she was the only one in my life that made me feel that way.

“NO, it is I,” continued the inner voice.

I had heard about the inner voice before. Some people totally changed their lives and became very spiritual, whereas others became sick, confused, angry and frightened. I realized then that I had been in the later group. I had been unable to perceive any form of inner world. Even during my time with Mytria, I was communicating with the Mother Planet, who was underneath and around me.

Never before had I imagined a reality within my form other than the makings of a physical form. With these last words I started to drift off into sleep. At least, I thought it was sleep. Maybe it was a hallucination or maybe I was dying. However, now I know that it was the Truth.

Truth, that was a word that was just as dubious as the word Trust. I had trusted Mytria, totally and without question. Why had the mere suggestion of a Vision Quest set me into such an emotional state? That question was the last thought I had before I passed out, went to sleep, or had a Vision!

In my vision, I was alone on the land. It was the same land that I had shared with Mytria, but it was filled with light. Everything had a soft aura around it and seemed to whisper to me as I passed by. I, too, had a glow around me, and my body seemed to be made of light and it was almost transparent. I looked down to see if my leg was healed and found that, yes, it was totally fine, but my feet were not totally touching the ground. I was moving in a walking, floating motion, almost like treading water in our wonderful lake.

Again a pang of overwhelming grief overtook me, and I bolted into consciousness. What have I done? How could I have ruined the only good thing in my life? Why was I so afraid that she was tired of me?

“Because you were tired of your self,” came that damned voice.

Then, I realized that I had damned my own inner voice, my own self. Suddenly, I began to realize all the ways that I had damned myself through out my entire life. Finally, I realized that I do NOT like killing.

I do not like killing other people, I do not like destroying their homes or disrupting their property. I do not like destroying anything or any one. I don’t want to be a destroyer. I thought I would grow up to be a protector, but instead I became an enemy of people and beings that were “different” from me—but where they really different?

They all had a heart, or maybe two, they all had brains, many had much larger brains than mine, and they ALL had families. AND, I had destroyed them, as well as their families. How could I ever forgive myself? How could I ever be the person that I saw in my Vision? Yes, it was a Vision. At least I could own that.

“It is not a Vision, it is the Truth,” I heard inside.

“What Truth, the truth that I was a destroyer or the truth that I was having a vision?” Now, I was arguing with my inner voice.

“The Truth is that you ARE the person that you saw in your Vision,” whispered the voice within.

After that I think I passed out. However, I did awaken with those final words of “You ARE the person that you saw in your Vision in my heart.” Yes, amazingly enough, these words, this Truth, was still in my heart, right next to my love for Mytria. That thought jarred me fully awake to a mid-day sun. I pulled myself out of the dirt and started to take a military assessment of my situation, when I felt Mytria’s love.

Even though, I had fallen off a cliff to avoid her love, it was right where it had ALWAYS been. It was the love she had for me that had forced me to find the love I had for myself. Therefore, I pushed aside my old way of being. After all, it was that combative attitude that had gotten me into this fix. Then, my Protector self came into play. I had to protect Mytria, but I had to stay alive to do so.

“What about the planet? Do you have to protect Her too?”

It appeared that even when I was totally conscious and in broad daylight, the inner voice was still active. Did I have the courage to listen to it?




As this was getting quite long, I put the rest of the story in part 2 of the Pleiadian Ascension story.





Sources:
http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/2012/05/normal-0-false-false-false-en-us-ja-x_22.html

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/2012/05/5-23-12-inner-voice-beloveds-we.html

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/2012/05/normal-0-false-false-false-en-us-ja-x_24.html

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/2012/05/cave.html

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/2012/05/recognition.html

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/2012/05/unity.html

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/2012/05/vision-quest.html