I'm excited to finally be moving out of this place. There are so many problems here it isn't even funny. I told Ed that his daughter Brianna is a bully and that she needs help, but instead of facing the facts and doing something to help her be more positive and make it so she doesn't wind up like Gabby and Andi, he tried to make me out to be selfish by saying I never do anything. (Mind you he likes to pretend I don't so he can have a false upper hand. I've told him a few times what I've done, but when he has to do those things he feels lost and tries bargaining with me to get away from having to do them. Ex. Laundry isn't his thing.)

Gabby and Andi are his oldest 2 and they don't live here. (Thank the cosmos! lol) Gabby instigated numerous arguments for a week and propagated negative energy and no mater how much I begged him to send them away, he never cared about my concerns, yet I'm the selfish one. I was about to die from being in mortal pain for so long and he didn't bat an eye, yet I stood up to them for him. Negative energy is VERY debilitating to me. They have a VERY difficult life and I can see why.

Ed would rather leave his kids unchecked and allow them to be mean to people. He doesn't care that Gabi and Andi didn't turn out to be positive people. He doesn't care that Brianna will follow suit. I hope Milan and Melia don't wind up the same way. They're nice kids, but with a madman for a dad and a proven track record that he raises bullies, I'd have to imagine that their positive behavior isn't going to last.

Brianna bullies me all the time and Ed could care less, yet I stood up for him. Compromise to him means that I should sacrifice my happiness for his desires. He made very little sacrifices and hurt me plenty, but yet he still thinks I'm the selfish one. He's 55 years old and can't have a stable relationship because he doesn't know how to treat people and with living with Brianna who's a bully, people aren't willing to stick around.

I've told him how I see things and he knows what to stop doing that's hurting people, but he doesn't care. He often gets all liquored up and drains my energy. Some nights I have to sleep next to the stink of a brewery it's so bad.

I've learned much from being here including the fact that hierarchies aren't always such a bad thing. I wish I saw it that way growing up and then it could have fixed a lot of problems at home. Hierarchies are a good way to have the general interest of the whole condensed through one or two people whom the group trusts to make sure they aren't steered wrong. The thing my parents didn't always do all the time is ask for our input before making their decisions. I was fighting to be free of anyone's control, yet I didn't realize it wasn't about control, but as a way to act as a group with common interests. This is still new to me, but I've learned a hard lesson while clearing karma from my childhood from being here.

I also decided to just start being more agreeable when it comes to non-critical stuff. Even if I don't agree with the situation, if I don't feel like fighting to let people know my feelings, I'll just let them have their way and be done with it. For instance, creditors are trying to collect money I don't owe right now, but I figure it's a bit over $400 and I know money is in abundance and they will get their karma from robbing me, so I figure I'll just pay them off so I don't have to deal with court cases. Besides, they'd probably have it on the other side of town so I couldn't get there and they'd win by default as they can't prove their case anyway. As I don't feel like going through that hassle, I'll just use the law of abundance and let them have the money they wish to steal from the poor and give to the rich corporation. The cosmos takes care of the karma and we're good.

This should end the long stint of pain and it seems the rounds of pain are getting shorter now. This is the end of the 3rd round of lesson smashing through pain in my life. The first was growing up, then I got a break for a while, then my quest to learn to love myself and now the pain that was a bunch of lessons thrown into a hodgepodge. I don't know how many lessons the sleepers I live with have learned while I was here, but if they're smart, they will meditate on the situation and learn the lessons written in pain that they had while I lived here. Hopefully their darkness will recede so they can grow too.

I won't move in with anyone else anymore, but after getting to know the next person, they can over time move in with me. I don't want to have any more relationship issues that I have to be living with the person who hurts me anymore. I rather be a hermit, but if I live with someone who's truly awake, it could be a different story.




Keywords: moving day, relationship issues, ed, life lessons, pain

Here's a nice post and part of my reply to it on what you need to do to ascend.

Real is in perception. For some the illusions created in 3D are real and for some, 5D+ is real. For me, I find that real is what you feel is real for your life. So, if you believe that economic hardship is real, then its real for you. If you find that energetic pains that crush you, weigh you down, and put you in a state that makes it so you feel suffocated and unable to function, is real, then that's real for you. I can tell you this much, the pains I feel from negative energy shredding me is very real for me. I can of course manifest it leaves me or ask for help like I did, but sometimes its so brutal that I find it difficult to even just exist.

Some people are more sensitive to energies because they chose to allow that to be a part of their tool set for their mission. As I'm a powerful energy worker and I need to feel what I'm doing, like many of us do, I need to be sensitive to energy. I feel all energy, not just what I'm working with.

There are those who are powerful in changing the physical who go out into the darkest of places to help bring them closer to the light and they made it so they can't feel energy. If they could feel that energy, then they'd be shredded and in a MASSIVE amount of unnecessary pain. So, they cannot have the ability to feel energy all the time or they couldn't perform well in places they need to go.

I designed this life to fill the need for grounding light energy into the Earth, to help enlighten people, and to help heal people, and to help them to liberate their selves by listening to their heart. That's my function in this life and I'm happy to perform those services, but sometimes the light work does become brutal and I need to learn energetic lessons.

Someone might design a life where they work through PETA and the ASPCA and go to places where animals are cruelly tortured and mutilated and eventually killed. That happens on a daily basis to many animals like chickens and other people in the animal communities and their people need help. So, someone who designs a life to observe people in the act of brutally torturing those animals and murdering them cannot feel the energy of the situation or they could die from that intensity. They need to stay objective and get it on film so the companies get shut down and many lives are saved or ended in a way that's quick and painless.

Someone working for the ASPCA might need to walk into a puppy mill with a hidden camera to shut them down too. They can't feel the energy as intensely as someone who's energy sensitive or they would perish eventually.

Everyone has their own missions in life and some feel energy and some do not.




Keywords: energy sensitive, reality, peta, aspca, animals, sensate

A friend of mine, Jana, did a reading for me. Below are the results and what she said might be helpful for your life as well.

Most people are having ups and downs due to 3 factors.

1.) The solar eclipse happened on May 20th. (Happens every once in a while)
2.) The Venus transit happened on 6/5 and 6/6. (Happens about 2 times a century)
3.) The alignment with Alcyone happened on May 21st. (Happens once every 26,000 years - The same amount of time for us to orbit within the universe and pass through the photon belt that provides the physics that allow us to ascend)

These are MAJOR events and Earth has been in a corrupt masculine state for a very long time. (Masculine energy is healthy, but corrupt masculine is not. Healthy masculine balances out naturally with healthy feminine.) So, having the Moon's feminine energy, Venus' feminine energy, and Alcyone's feminine energy all pouring into a world of corrupt masculine energy, a MASSIVE amount of change happens to balance things out. Gaia has feminine energy in her too and its what the dark ones have done that caused the imbalance. It was amplified by the ones who have been mislead by the dark ones and stopped being of love.

Plus, us lightworkers have been helping to intensify the love energies and that balances things as well. So, we have at LEAST 5 things balancing the corrupt masculine here now. (The 3 things in the list above, plus Earth's feminine energy and our lightworkers' assistance.)

Let me put this into perspective. The hippie generation (I was a part of that in my last life) was the first group of Indigos. If it wasn't for the hippie generation smashing down old values to make way for love in larger amounts, women might not be free (that's where much of the feminine energy in people is) and people would be wearing suits and acting all "proper." The dark ones would be more powerful, and everything would be MAJORLY different. People would not be receptive to spirituality at this time and we would miss our shift. That was a MAJOR turning point for our freedom on Earth.

Now, The next wave of indigos were born in the late 70s and early 80s. We are another group who smashed down old corrupt values in many ways. Occupy Wall Street helps the general populace to wake up and realize that things are not right. The gay community is no longer being suppressed as much, so more people feel free to be their selves. We have a black president and that shows to MANY people that a black person is equal to everyone else. There are so many people who are breaking down old ways and letting people know that the government is not here to protect people. They are here to control people.

Now with the influx of all this new feminine energy, all of that debris that we kicked up as indigos, is being smoothed out into a loving world. This will take until the end of the year and now is where it starts getting exciting with all of this balancing energy. We are now finishing up the lessons we need to learn and are forming our new lives in the new energy, but most people are having a difficult time adjusting to the new energies as they are knocking apart the old ways in your life that are not helpful to you in your ascension. All the old must go in order for ascension to be possible for you. So, if you flow with what is being sent your way, you'll have a much easier time than if you oppose it. You chose to be here at this moment and you knew that this would happen. Some people chose to leave the world at this stage, but many have chosen to continue on. So, yes you will be forced to change, but you agreed to that change before you came to Earth at this time.

This is why you're having a hard time in your life right now and why most people are. I hope this helps. Also, remember to listen to your heart. Its louder now than ever before.




Keywords: feminine, corrupt, masculine, dark ones, hippies, indigos, venus, transit, moon, earth, gaia, alcyone, life changes