Understand – Connect – Love: Acknowledge your true reality and become free of the illusion

If an experience is vaguely familiar and similar, our consciousness tends to fall into the habit of not entirely engaging with the experience and haphazardly acknowledging it as the same; falling into the trap of preventing new experiences from fully being experienced and living in an illusion of projected pasts, this causes false expectations of the present and prevents us from truly living there. I know, as I have done this a great deal with meeting new people who vaguely resemble a past person that I have met and experienced. The feeling of them may be alike, and so, subconsciously I have blurred the two together to live in the past experience of the other, rather than being actively engaged with this new person and placing my consciousness in the here and the now to explore and interact with this wholly new entity. We do this too not only with other people, but with the SAME person as well; getting into the habit of viewing a person as fixed, stuck and unchanging, rather than the TRUE, always growing and evolving being that they and all humans are! And so we must understand to acknowledge that they WILL change and grow and evolve, as we all will, as there is no other way!

Living in the same house and town for my entire life, I have fallen into the trap of perceiving things as ‘unchanging’ here in my surrounding environment as well, which is harmful to my being in exactly the same way; never actively participating in the here and the now because I have projected the past upon my present and evaluated it as something old, the same and stale, my reality had become an illusion in this way. To break free from this, there is a simple act you can do. It seems obvious at first, but none of us are really taught the importance of it, and so forget to. We do this a great deal as kids, but then become adults and focus our consciousness more on fears, doubts and insecurities, and so we fall into the illusions of separation, rather than being actively engaged in the now and the true reality!

“Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?!” We would ask again and again as children until we were told to shut up by our parents, or became conditioned not to do so and not to be curious or deeply interested in the world around us by a society that is structured to not achieve the ‘why?’ of nature and existence, but instead forces you to constantly ask the ‘why?’ of “why am I not good enough and forced to compete to prove my worthiness?”.

We are beings who CRAVE to know the ‘why?’ of our nature and reality, and we are beings of oneness that desires to connect to and understand all things; not to compete, dominate or manipulate so that we can have control over another, but simply to connect to and understand; for it isn’t until you fully understand an entity or concept that you are truly able to send it your love in the deepest and most complete of ways, and we our very cores and essence, beings who strive and yearn to find our way back to our ultimate and true state of unconditional love and unconditional connection. When we stop asking ‘why?’ we stop actively engaging with our world and environment; we stop striving for truth, connection and understanding, and we become consciously lethargic and let allow a vaguely acknowledged illusion of our true reality fall into place. Doubts, fears and insecurities are tactics of this dualistic existence that distract our consciousness from asking this ‘why?’ as well, and they keep our consciousness pre-occupied and prevent us from actively engaging with the here and the now.

And so, how do we remedy and heal all of this?! Well, it takes a lot of perceptual work! First it is done by acknowledging the reality that you ARE an eternal and infinite being who is merely having a human experience, and then you must strive to live from that place of true existence and understanding; strive to be a being of unconditional love and one who loves ALL things that could EVER be in existence and then acknowledge that they are worthy of understanding and love. Yes, even rape and murder have their rightful place in existence! All things you would consider ‘evil’ or ‘bad’ have their rightful place in existence, as they are constructs of the oneness of all things and allow for a unique, one of a kind experience.

In the ultimate truth and reality of things, there are no such thing as ‘right’ or ‘wrong’ or ‘good’ or ‘evil’, as it is understood that all things are unique experiences and constructs of the oneness taking place that are worthy of existing and occurring and taking place. It is something hard to understand and feel out at first, and so I will explain to you how I personally was able to understand this. But before I do that! It is important to mention that by consciously labeling things as ‘right or wrong’ and ‘good or evil’, your consciousness is giving more power to and emphasizing BOTH of those constructs! To actively hold those beliefs of ‘good’ and ‘evil’ within your consciousness creates a polarity within your being that manifests outwards into the physical world! By assigning ‘good’ and ‘bad’ judgments, It creates these opposing negative and positive energies within you and your environment, and it only helps to reinforce such acts and encourage them in this reality, rather than helping to do away with them!

And so, as always, understanding ALL THINGS within existence in their deepest and truest sense, and giving your honest and genuine love to ALL things in existence, even including things like rape and murder and the worst of the worst you could think of, is the only way to truly defeat and do away with such things in the first place! But how is it that you can possibly understand to give love to those ‘evil’ and ‘bad’ things that take place in this world? Well, first you must remember and realize that you ARE an infinite being, and that you came here to earth in the first place to have an entirely unique and incredibly experience. In truth, you cannot die! You cannot be hurt nor have any pain caused to you, not truly! For In truth, you are invulnerable and infinite! A bit of physical pain can take place, yes, as we are currently ‘stuck’ in these physical bodies… However, mental, emotional and spiritual pain can ALWAYS be prevented and healed by acknowledging your unconditional loving soul-truths; and perhaps even physical pain can be prevented or at least dulled by tapping into the power of our consciousness, such is the power of the placebo effect and our beliefs; such is the true power of our being and consciousness.

All pain and suffering occurs from a place of ignorance and non-understanding, and all pain and suffering occurs in order to teach us why it is what we have done goes against unconditional love; that, or it is merely an experience our eternal self would like to go through in order to learn and understand what unconditional love is. This is sometimes called karma, which is not a punishment. Karma is the oneness of all things reaching out towards you in an attempt to connect you back to it.

Through understanding the true nature of something and what it’s all about, we can consciously send towards it the connection of our being, and then, by acknowledging that it is worthy of acceptance and worthy of existence, we can then wish it well and send it our love as well. This is what you must strive to do if you wish to become fully consciousness and awakened from this illusionary existence of separation and dualistic polarity, you must love all things unconditionally; all experiences, all people, all things around you… All of it! Know that all things are infinitely worthy of understanding, infinitely worthy of acknowledgment, and infinitely worthy of your love!

Getting back to how it is you might be able to understand that all ‘bad’ and ‘evil’ things upon this earth are indeed constructs that are worthy of your love, in the sense that they are constructs that are worthy of existing upon this planet as possibilities, experiences and options that a being wouldn’t be able to have here while they are incarnated upon this earth if they didn’t exist, I will now give to you the example that I had used to grapple with this truth.

Human beings, and the eternal beings and souls that we are, hungrily crave unique, entertaining and worthwhile experiences! And so! Sitting around for eternity, thinking of fun, worthwhile and meaningful things to do, we have come up with this concept of ‘earth’, where we would go to and forget our true state of existence for a short while in order to experience what it’s like to be a limited consciousness; for that is what we have here on earth, a short while; even with the hundreds or thousands of incarnations we might have here to find our way back to our true version of self, it is a mere cosmic blink of the eye when compared to all of infinity.
And so now here we are! And from this limited state of being, we can’t help but ask that ‘Why? Why? Why?’ about everything around us; even all of the things we knew so intimately and perfectly before, now forgotten and to be re-learned. We are beings who love to compare, contrast and understand things, because to understand something is to connect back to our oneness and become that much closer to obtaining that version of our ultimate self, and to understand something and acknowledge a new aspect of the oneness is our true nature of existing in the first place! New entities and constructs are being spawned into existence constantly through the power of creation, and that is why it is entirely so fulfilling to be a creative and self-expressive person. It is unconditional love and creation that powers the ever expanding infinity of oneness that we all are a facet of after all! And it is here where we can always find our ultimate fulfillment and meaning.

We are beings who love adventures and even conflict in the sense that something is ‘conflicting’ with our current more limited beliefs and knowing, so that we can struggle there for a bit, overcome it, and then emerge with a new understanding and at a more evolved state. No one wants to watch a movie that doesn’t have any conflict! No one wants to read a book without any conflict, and no one wants to play a video game without it either! We WANT to rise to the challenge of conflict… We want to overcome, understand and resolve whatever issue might be at hand, and THIS is why conflict, ‘bad’ and ‘evil’ things are here upon earth, because humans are ignorant and struggling to understand the true nature of their existence; struggling to understand our eternal truths of unconditional love that we once knew, again, this is precisely why all of these ‘evil’ and ‘bad’ experiences and constructs spawn into existence here on earth; for without them, we would never be able to understand why not to do otherwise! Without them, we couldn’t hope but properly grow and evolve back to our state of unconditional love. For this, free will needs to be allowed, and for this, ‘bad’ and ‘evil’ acts and experiences must be allowed and acknowledged with worthiness within existence. We simply need them there to compare and contrast and give us perspective as we make our way back to our eternal and true selves.

Our lives here on earth, in great part, are fated and divinely engineered. And I do believe that they are also being helped along and influenced by our true and eternal versions of self all the while. As I have heard that what has been referred to as our ‘guardian angel’, is in truth, our eternal and infinite facet of our existence gently guiding our limited version of self towards scenarios and experiences that they believe will enable us to learn and grow and evolve, as well as preventing us from having harmful scenarios befall us that we do not feel we need to participate in, and that has always resonated true with me. And now as we make our way back to that state of eternal existence and unconditional love, our world becomes a much more light hearted, fun, and loving place; a place where curiosity and creativity lead the way in all that we do, and unconditional love becomes a platform for our existence to stem forward from. It is an existence we would all like to achieve, and an existence we will all get too eventually.

I believe it is helpful to liken our existence here as a sort of ultra-vivid video game in which our consciousness enters, however not knowing that it is a video game and that we are merely the character that our eternal soul is ‘playing’ the video game as; similar to the philosophical illusionary world in the movie ‘The Matrix’, only our ultimate existence we wake up to is is a heavenly sort of state of unconditional love, connection and creativity, rather than one controlled by intelligent robot organisms…! Just for the same reason why people play video games here on earth is to have a sort of unique, engaging, worthwhile adventure in which we can overcome challenges, defeat enemies, grow, evolve and become more powerful and capable, this is the same reason we come here to earth; only here, we create our own enemies and challenges out of our ignorance and this place of non-understanding and non-unconditional love.

You see, all of those ‘evil’ and ‘bad’ things that take place here upon earth like rape, murder and the like are not constructs or concepts within existence that you could ever say you would rather have them ‘not existing at all, because you hate them and are wrong and bad’, instead, you must acknowledge their benefit and worthiness within the context of a being who exists infinitely and from a place of unconditional love for all constructs and things within existence. All of those ‘bad’ and ‘evil’ things here on earth are like monsters and demons you might face as enemies in a videogame; they exist so that they might be overcome, and they exist so that you might gain some insight and understanding about true and unconditional love by being able to empathize and connect more to your reality here taking place upon earth; they exist so that they might teach and help evolve a soul in some way shape or form, and provide for them with a unique obstacle, challenge and experience to overcome.

Strive to align your being with your eternal, infinite self, and strive to align your being with unconditional love. Strive to acknowledge the worthiness and value of all things within existence, for this is what it means to ascend. It is something impossible to not ascend, for you are doing it all of the time! Merely by existing and being here on earth, you are collecting experiences, progressing and evolving. Even if it feels like you are not, I assure you that you are! And that you will all get there eventually, so do not worry! Take a few deep breathes, relax, and just be! Nothing more is ever required of you~ And finally, when you are able to resonate your being with this place of unconditional love and state of infinite existence, you WILL be ascended… And it will be bliss~

The earth and all her peoples are so very close now to reaching a hugely noticeable tipping point! And it is only a short matter of time before unconditional love flourishes upon this planet in the most profound of ways.

Source: http://lightworkers.org/blog/179016/understand-connect-love-acknowledge-your-true-reality-and-become-free-illusion




Keywords: illusion, earth, why ask why

I'm excited to finally be moving out of this place. There are so many problems here it isn't even funny. I told Ed that his daughter Brianna is a bully and that she needs help, but instead of facing the facts and doing something to help her be more positive and make it so she doesn't wind up like Gabby and Andi, he tried to make me out to be selfish by saying I never do anything. (Mind you he likes to pretend I don't so he can have a false upper hand. I've told him a few times what I've done, but when he has to do those things he feels lost and tries bargaining with me to get away from having to do them. Ex. Laundry isn't his thing.)

Gabby and Andi are his oldest 2 and they don't live here. (Thank the cosmos! lol) Gabby instigated numerous arguments for a week and propagated negative energy and no mater how much I begged him to send them away, he never cared about my concerns, yet I'm the selfish one. I was about to die from being in mortal pain for so long and he didn't bat an eye, yet I stood up to them for him. Negative energy is VERY debilitating to me. They have a VERY difficult life and I can see why.

Ed would rather leave his kids unchecked and allow them to be mean to people. He doesn't care that Gabi and Andi didn't turn out to be positive people. He doesn't care that Brianna will follow suit. I hope Milan and Melia don't wind up the same way. They're nice kids, but with a madman for a dad and a proven track record that he raises bullies, I'd have to imagine that their positive behavior isn't going to last.

Brianna bullies me all the time and Ed could care less, yet I stood up for him. Compromise to him means that I should sacrifice my happiness for his desires. He made very little sacrifices and hurt me plenty, but yet he still thinks I'm the selfish one. He's 55 years old and can't have a stable relationship because he doesn't know how to treat people and with living with Brianna who's a bully, people aren't willing to stick around.

I've told him how I see things and he knows what to stop doing that's hurting people, but he doesn't care. He often gets all liquored up and drains my energy. Some nights I have to sleep next to the stink of a brewery it's so bad.

I've learned much from being here including the fact that hierarchies aren't always such a bad thing. I wish I saw it that way growing up and then it could have fixed a lot of problems at home. Hierarchies are a good way to have the general interest of the whole condensed through one or two people whom the group trusts to make sure they aren't steered wrong. The thing my parents didn't always do all the time is ask for our input before making their decisions. I was fighting to be free of anyone's control, yet I didn't realize it wasn't about control, but as a way to act as a group with common interests. This is still new to me, but I've learned a hard lesson while clearing karma from my childhood from being here.

I also decided to just start being more agreeable when it comes to non-critical stuff. Even if I don't agree with the situation, if I don't feel like fighting to let people know my feelings, I'll just let them have their way and be done with it. For instance, creditors are trying to collect money I don't owe right now, but I figure it's a bit over $400 and I know money is in abundance and they will get their karma from robbing me, so I figure I'll just pay them off so I don't have to deal with court cases. Besides, they'd probably have it on the other side of town so I couldn't get there and they'd win by default as they can't prove their case anyway. As I don't feel like going through that hassle, I'll just use the law of abundance and let them have the money they wish to steal from the poor and give to the rich corporation. The cosmos takes care of the karma and we're good.

This should end the long stint of pain and it seems the rounds of pain are getting shorter now. This is the end of the 3rd round of lesson smashing through pain in my life. The first was growing up, then I got a break for a while, then my quest to learn to love myself and now the pain that was a bunch of lessons thrown into a hodgepodge. I don't know how many lessons the sleepers I live with have learned while I was here, but if they're smart, they will meditate on the situation and learn the lessons written in pain that they had while I lived here. Hopefully their darkness will recede so they can grow too.

I won't move in with anyone else anymore, but after getting to know the next person, they can over time move in with me. I don't want to have any more relationship issues that I have to be living with the person who hurts me anymore. I rather be a hermit, but if I live with someone who's truly awake, it could be a different story.




Keywords: moving day, relationship issues, ed, life lessons, pain

lol Now that I have your attention, I figure I'd let you know what I noticed since 12/12/12. With the energies of 12/12/12, we can no longer experience as negative of vibrations as we once could. Our lowest point is now of a much higher vibration. At least that's what I've noticed.




Keywords: 12/12/12, vibration, energy, negative

I just watched a video on how to perform muscle testing and I tried it myself and it seems to work well. Try it yourself!

Keep in mind that your perception of things will change your reaction as well. I'm programming firmware for my modem and its brutal sometimes. Its taken me months so far and I'm making progress, but when I tested it by picturing the modem, my muscles went weak. When I pictured how many people I'd be helping with my invention, my muscles stayed strong. So, perception is key as well.

Its all in energy. If you don't have enough energy to power your muscles, they go weak. That's why some people will faint or feel flighty around negative energy.






Keywords: muscle testing, healthy, energy

As you may know, Gate Lion was trying to kick up a shit storm on Lightworkers.org and was annoying many people. Apparently she's still at it over a month later. My friend sent me this quote and gave me the link to where it was posted. Perhaps the dark ones have paid her to be mean to everyone?

A word of advice, live in love, never let other tell you what to do. You can use those people to vent your negative energy if they wish for it though their actions, but don't let them cover your light in darkness. Give them the garbage they put over your light. (Negativity) this way your light will shine ever brighter.